ADHD Pro

Robert Merki

Copyright © 2021 Robert Merki

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ISBN: 9798506737971

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Table of Contents

Preface

Introduction

Part 1

Chapter 1 What Is ADHD?

Chapter 2 My ADHD

Chapter 3 Getting Diagnosed

Chapter 4 Going to Therapy

Chapter 5 Bad Advice

Chapter 6 Time & Energy

Chapter 7 Finding Our Own Tools

Part 2

Chapter 8 The Harsh Truths about ADHD

Chapter 9 Hyperfocus

Chapter 10 Letting People Down

Chapter 11 Letting Yourself Down

Chapter 12 Take Responsibility

Chapter 13 Calendar Anxiety

Chapter 14 Stuff I Tried

Part 3

Chapter 15 Getting Better

Chapter 16 Mindset

Chapter 17 The Long Game

Chapter 18 Mental Effort

Chapter 19 Healthy Stuff

Chapter 20 Tacit Knowledge

Part 4

Chapter 21 Components of a Strategy

Chapter 22 Skill #1: Mindfulness

Chapter 23 Skill #2: Planning

Chapter 24 Skill #3: Infrastructure

Chapter 25 Skill #4: Motivation

Chapter 26 Skill #5: Distractions

Chapter 27 Putting It All Together

Chapter 28 Getting Stuck

Conclusion

Chapter 29 ADHD Is Hard

Chapter 30 A New Strategy

Chapter 31 Sometimes You Fail

Chapter 32 Reasons For Hope

Chapter 33 Go Work On Your Strategy

Preface

This Book Is Not Medical Advice

I’m not a therapist, counselor, or mental health expert.

I have no formal training in psychology, therapy, neurology, neuroscience, or counseling.

If you’re in mental health distress, please see a trained professional immediately.

The Interviews

I have been fortunate enough to interview many successful people with ADHD who have thrived in their careers despite their mental health obstacles. I asked them if they wanted to be quoted in this book. Some chose to remain anonymous, and I have preserved their ideas inline as well as I could. The rest are named here.

Avalon, Colin, Dani, Danny, Phil, Shirinnada, and the rest of you who have generously given me your time and honesty, thank-you for sharing your deepest personal struggles.

Terminology

ADHD 

Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder.  

ADD 

A now-retired acronym that means the exact same thing as ADHD. 

Hyperfocus 

Moments, days, or sometimes weeks of extremely focused, obsessive hyper-productivity. Generally uncontrollable, and you usually lose track of time. Not to be confused with a “manic episode,” which is part of a different disorder. 

Tacit Knowledge 

Knowledge that can’t be easily transferred to another person. Something you can only learn by doing.

Riding a bike means you have  tacit knowledge of riding a bike.

Introduction

Introduction

I have two assumptions about you. First, that you have ADHD. Second, that you’re having a hard time with productivity.

Productivity has many forms, but for the scope of this book we will deal with fundamentally creative, “white-collar” work. You might be in college and want to start your homework on time rather than panicking the night before it’s due. Or perhaps you’re a software developer and want to write more code on a daily basis. Or maybe you’re an aspiring artist who just wants to be able to pick up their brush more often instead of feeling too distracted to even begin. Despite the different types, these are all productive tasks that are fundamentally creative. Your brain must focus on these to do them.

Regardless of who you are, the goal of this book is help you understand and remove the barriers preventing you from doing sustained, creative, productive work. If you want that, please keep reading.

Furthermore, I was shocked this type of book did not already exist. I like being productive. I also have ADHD. It seems logical that I would find and enjoy books about being more productive with ADHD. So far, nothing I have read addressed my issues.

There are plenty of scientific and parenting books about ADHD, but most of the adult writing fails to address the direct productivity and organizational challenges we have in a meaningful way. Of the existing adult ADHD books I found, there are three general categories:

Rigid systems & organizational techniques

Overzealous claims about ADHD superpowers

Infantilizing ADHD

Category 1: Books That Prescribed Rigid Systems & Organizational Techniques

Rigid systems are generally not useful for people with ADHD. Organizational techniques, such as bullet journaling, are more useful, but they are just tools. Tools have their place, but they don’t actually help on their own. I often found myself asking questions about their usage. When should each tool be used? How often? What is the broader context of a particular tool? These meta-problems are rarely addressed.

Furthermore, I could never follow the recommended systems for long periods of time. I’m sure that all of the recommended tools or techniques I found are useful for some people, but I could never stick to them. I have ADHD after all, and as you might imagine, any new system I implemented was quickly abandoned or forgotten.

Category 2: Books That Make Claims About ADHD Being A “Superpower”

The “superpower” rhetoric is frustrating. These books generally make the claim that ADHD is some sort of “hunter” mindset, while most people have a “gatherer” or “farmer” mindset. They go on to claim that “society just isn’t built for people like us” or something to that nature. To be honest, it’s not a theory I can easily disprove. In fact, my gut instinct is to believe at least some of it. Regardless of how valid this theory is, it’s impractical. We don’t live in tribes anymore. I can’t drop my programming job and go hunt a mammoth with a spear.

Even the most adrenaline filled modern careers have some monotonous or organization tasks that must be completed. Besides, if we ignore the “career” thing for a moment, I have often found myself getting distracted while at the gym or doing physical work. Aren’t these activities that would be ideal for “hunter” brains? While I enjoy reading new theories, these ones delegitimize the real and painful problems people have with the activities they actually want to do. I don’t want to be a hunter. I want to read books, be organized, and finish projects.

Some books even go as far as calling ADHD a superpower. I personally find this insulting. ADHD only looks like a superpower in an extremely narrow set of circumstances.

A select few have the privilege of outsourcing many of their day-to-day responsibilities and organizational tasks, leaving them free to spend their days exploring their latest ADHD fueled hyperfocus. I must admit that I am jealous. It would be wonderful to be free of the generic daily tasks that take up so much of my mental energy, but most people can’t afford that. For those that can, moments of hyperfocus might look like “superhuman” brilliance. I recall one author talking about harnessing their “superhuman” abilities in running their business, and only briefly mentioning their full-time personal assistant that manages their entire life.

I respect the optimism, but only a tiny number of people can afford a full-time personal assistant. It also belittles people who are suffering from daily ADHD symptoms. Forgetting appointments or being unable to finish an otherwise easy task is not a “superpower.” ADHD is a neurodevelopmental disorder with some pros and cons. It’s not a divine gift.

I do agree that people with ADHD have unique abilities from time to time. We can attach ourselves with incredible passion to interesting problems. These are usually called “rabbit holes” or “hyperfocus”. These rabbit holes can be both enlightening and educational, and I personally have benefitted in my career from the vast array of new projects that I have started. Many ADHDers can appear to be the “jack of all trades” at times. It’s impressive to be a novice in so many different categories. But it’s a lucky accident. From this perspective, I can see why some people call it a “superpower.” But this benefit of ADHD has its own drawbacks. Starting so many projects means you’ve abandoned most of them. All these rabbit holes have consequences, and they never seem to last very long. If ADHD is a superpower, it’s a lousy one at best.

Category 3: Books That Infantilize ADHD

Every time I see the “hey look a squirrel!” joke I cringe. It’s not funny. It’s insulting. Living a life full of unwanted distractions is soul-crushing and these jokes make me feel worse about it.

Beyond the poor jokes, I’m constantly shocked every time I read a so-called adult ADHD book that makes me feel like I have no power to change. These books usually revolve around self-acceptance rather than self-improvement. I understand the desire to be reassuring, but ultimately, I want to do better. I want to be more productive. I believe anyone who puts in the effort can become more skilled at managing their ADHD, and I don’t accept that anyone should stop improving in the name of self-acceptance. Self-acceptance is important, but it’s only useful as an analytical measuring tool. Accepting yourself does not improve productivity by itself.

Imagine if you started reading a book about improving your drawing skills. In chapter one, this book tells you to accept the fact that you cannot draw. Now imagine that the rest of our hypothetical book explains the various ways you can be successful in life without drawing at all. This example seems silly, but this is the exact conclusion that many books and articles come to with ADHD. I cannot accept that.

It’s not helpful to gloss over severe career-threatening mental health issues that people desperately want to solve. Pretending that the ADHD status quo is unsolvable is not helpful. Self-acceptance is an analytical, reflective process that helps us come to terms with our faults. It’s an essential part of a broader strategy to overcoming ADHD, but it’s only the first step.

This Book

With this book, I tried to do something different. I’m going to give you an honest account of what having ADHD is really like in a professional, success-oriented setting. I’m not a high-powered CEO with a personal assistant, but I have built a successful career and some notable projects while struggling with ADHD.

I was also diagnosed later in life relative to many ADHDers. While I wish I had known sooner, I think my adult diagnosis provided me with a clear and objective understanding of my progress over time. I remember the distinct before and after, and I think this gives me a unique perspective.

Over the last few years, I have interviewed many people who publicly and privately told me about their ADHD struggles. I found we had many common strategies and put them into this book. It’s advice with a high rate of success for people who want to build fruitful, productive lives while minimizing the stress and anxiety caused by their ADHD brain.

If you are someone who hopes to achieve long term, sustainable, healthy productivity, then you are in the right place.

A Series of Patterns

Many of my interviewees believed that their coping strategies were unique to their success. This was not true. The more I kept digging, the more patterns I found. Successful ADHDers have the same things in common.

Understanding that you are not alone is the first step. The second step is to start building your own, personal version of this strategy.

The Journey Ahead

ADHD is emotionally draining, but you might not notice it yet. So much of what we do is connected to our brain dysfunction. We often assume everything about us is connected to a personality trait. Once we start learning more about ADHD, we see that a lot of our “personality traits” are just common symptoms of ADHD.

Things like:

“I’m someone who can’t focus.”

Becomes:

“ADHD causes executive dysfunction which reduces my ability to focus sometimes.”

Some people find this transition reassuring. What used to be personality flaws are now involuntary symptoms of a neurodevelopmental disorder.

When I first discussed ADHD with my mother, she told me she felt guilty about not noticing. When I asked her if she ever noticed how many projects I started and abandoned, or how I would often finish homework at the last minute, she said “of course I noticed.” Neither of us had heard of ADHD outside of the “hyperactive kid” stereotype, so we both assumed that these were my personality quirks. Now that I look back, I recognize how desperately I wanted the ability to complete homework early or finish the many projects I started.

For some people, it’s a relief to find out their so called “laziness” is not a moral failure or a personality flaw. It’s even shocking to family members or close friends when you explain to them how your symptoms have affected you for so many years.

There’s also a second group of people that found their previous ignorance was much more comfortable. It’s straightforward to be a human with some personality quirks, rather than to find out you have a neurodevelopmental disorder.

Honestly, I’ve felt both ways about it. The idea that I have an insurmountable neurodevelopmental disorder preventing me from doing the things I want to do can feel depressing at times. On the other hand, the journey to understanding my brain has allowed me to build a much more sustainable, happy, and productive life. Perhaps it’s not so bad.

The journey ahead is filled with both sides of this coin. You will be relieved to find new strategies, but you will also have to accept that your brain isn’t perfect. Some days will be difficult, and some will be phenomenal. Your productivity will always be inconsistent in some way, and you will always have trouble with certain tasks or activities. But if you’re able to accept this reality, then you’ve completed the first step.

Onward

The most common pattern I found during my interviews was that every successful person with ADHD has treated their ADHD like a project. This project is a work-in-progress, and it requires objectivity, compassion, practice, and patience. This project isn’t a notebook or a document. You don’t have to take notes or start highlighting pages. There’s no checklist to follow and no homework to do. This is a personal strategy. You build this over a long period of time, from a few standard components that you can easily understand by just continuing to read.

This book is not an all-encompassing instruction manual with rigid bullet points. It’s a guidebook to build your own strategy. I’ll share with you the skills that I and others practiced, as well as the self-compassionate ways that you can improve yourself as you grow and mature.

So, let’s get started.

Part 1

The Bad Parts of ADHD

Chapter 1 
What Is ADHD?

Executive Dysfunction

ADHD is a neurodevelopmental disorder that manifests in something called executive dysfunction. Executive dysfunction causes your brain to have difficulty selecting and monitoring your behavior to reach your goals. It affects task management, scheduling, awareness of time, goal setting, and concentration. Sounds familiar, doesn’t it?

The part of your brain responsible for executive functions is called the prefrontal cortex. You can think of this as the manager of your brain. It is responsible for decision making, goal setting, moderating social behavior, and certain language and speech functions. Sometimes this manager just isn’t working right, and it’s why you forget dates or can’t concentrate on some task even when you desperately want to.

While the outward expression of ADHD is well established, there is some contention on why executive dysfunction occurs. The culprit is usually the regulation or supply of dopamine in the brain.

Dopamine

Dopamine is both a hormone and neurotransmitter, and it’s at the core of executive dysfunction. In a neurotypical brain, dopamine is released upon an expected completion of a task or activity. Dopamine is not the pleasure or “reward” chemical. It’s the ongoing motivation chemical. Dopamine should be released when someone is on the way to finishing a task or project. Dopamine makes you feel good while doing tasks. It keeps you motivated to continue working towards the finish line. Those with ADHD don’t have enough dopamine available to their neurons, and thus are far less motivated to start or complete a given task, even if they normally enjoy doing it. Lack of dopamine causes the brain to seek out other sources of stimulation in the environment. You probably know these other sources of stimulation by their more common name: distractions.

Understimulation is the root cause of the “hyperactive ADHD child” stereotype. Despite what some teachers or parents think, these children aren’t “little shits,” and they certainly aren’t “hyped up on sugar.” Their so-called bad behavior is not their fault. These children simply don’t have the self-control to persist through their unstimulating environment, so they stand up, fidget, act out, yell, hit other kids, and so on. They have little self-control because they have executive dysfunction. Executive dysfunction, as we know, is caused by dopamine dysregulation. It’s a cycle of symptoms unfairly characterized as a moral or behavioral failure. These children end up with a built-in shame mechanism from years of suffering from this phenomenon throughout their youth. Your parents and teachers are no longer in the room with you, but their scolding still echoes in your mind.

These stereotypes about hyperactive children are why everyone thinks ADHD is about “hyperactivity.” It also doesn’t help that ADHD literally has “hyperactive” as part of the acronym. Hyperactivity is just one of the many manifestations of ADHD, and this narrow view has caused so many people to stay undiagnosed for so long.

Dopamine dysfunction is why we are so prone to starting new projects and never completing them. The initial start of the project is exceptionally stimulating, while the work required to continue and complete the project is not.

This lack of dopamine is also why stimulant medication works so effectively. If you flood the brain with enough dopamine, some of it will eventually go to the right place and you will gain the temporarily ability to resist external stimulation much more effectively.

Flooding your brain with dopamine is like dumping a barrel of motor oil under the hood of your car. Some of it will get to the right place, but not without unwanted side effects. It’s unfortunate, but stimulant medication is so effective that the trade-off is worth it.

What Causes Dopamine Dysregulation?

Unfortunately, the science surrounding the root cause of dopamine dysregulation is unsettled. Some claim that ADHD is a straightforward problem with dopamine production. Others have pointed to dopamine receptors as the culprit rather than the production of the chemical itself.

Beyond that, some research indicates that dopamine dysregulation is actually a symptom of some other underlying cause. There is evidence to suggest that ADHD is correlated to issues with gut bacteria or even environmental factors encountered during pregnancy. Finally, there is some new research that has concluded that our central nervous system and brain just develop slightly differently than what’s considered “neurotypical.” If you look at it from this light, the conclusion could be that ADHD is just another form of brain development with no underlying problem at all. This alludes to the “hunter” theory I presented earlier. Some think that ADHD is just another physical characteristic, just like hair color, foot size, or limb length.

The Future of Medicine

Whether it’s a lack of dopamine production, too few dopamine receptors, or some other underlying circuitry at fault, it’s hard to say. It may be relieving to know that you aren’t “lazy” or “easily distracted”. You just have a different brain structure than most people.

When I first dove into the research, I was quite disappointed. It brings me joy to work on projects, and I love feeling productive. Finding out that there is a brain issue blocking me from doing so was not what I wanted to hear. On the other hand, the knowledge that it’s an anatomical issue as opposed to a moral failure does calm down some of my self-loathing, but the frustration remains.

One day there might be some medical procedure to alleviate our pesky dopamine problem. Perhaps it’s gene therapy or a magical new drug that is laser-focused at improving these functions, or maybe it’s brain surgery. Until then, we must accept that there is no simple way to “fix” your ADHD symptoms, and perhaps it’s for the better. Every person I’ve spoken to has told me they would not want to change their brain in any way, despite the hardships that come with their ADHD diagnosis.

Chapter 1 
My ADHD

Poor Work Ethic

Before I had the luxury of attributing my perceived failures to a neurodevelopmental disorder, I used language such as “lazy” or “unmotivated” or “lacking work ethic” to describe myself. While I was fortunate to get through school with a combination of last-minute studying and cleverness, the negativity stuck.

It seemed like most people at school were able to do what they set their minds to doing. That’s not to say that I naively thought everyone had it figured out. It’s just that my own version of “figuring it out” was so painful every step of the way. The things I wanted to do were right in front of me, and I just couldn’t sit down and actually do them.

The kids who wanted to become mechanics or carpenters spent their time working on cars or wood. The kids who wanted to smoke weed and party all night, well, they smoked weed and partied.

The motivated university-bound kids who wanted to study, do homework, and join every school club, well…they did just that.

Could these people just…decide? Could they actually choose to work on what they were motivated to do?

I was motivated to ace tests and go to university, and I tried to get homework done on time. I wanted to have a well-organized calendar with all of my dates and appointments neatly plugged in to appropriate time slots. Instead, I was bored, unfocused, late with assignments, and depressed.

What was it about these motivated people that let them simply create a plan and just…do it? The prime example was the group of girls in my grade who would hang out after school in the library: The Smart Girls.

They weren’t hanging out. They were working. The Smart Girls finished all their homework the same day it was assigned. The Smart Girls never cheated, complained, or forgot their homework. They just sat together silently, in a communal state of productivity. The Smart Girls got their driver’s licenses precisely on their 16th birthday in one try, aced every single test, never missed a due date, and won the academic awards. The Smart Girls were presidents of school clubs and finished every single project they started. They memorized French vocabulary and had infuriatingly organized notebooks. The Smart Girls were also polite, kind, and amazing friends. They lent you a pen or piece of paper when you inevitably forgot yours.

Most of all, The Smart Girls could just get to work on command. They got down to business. I was insecure and tremendously jealous. They would work until their assignments were fully complete, and they did all of the practice problems in the textbook. They even completed the bonus assignments.

In each class, they sat quietly, taking beautiful, organized, precise, multi-colored notes with the perfect handwriting I could never replicate.

Clearly, I did not have ADHD since I wasn’t “hyperactive.” But I was certainly not a Smart Girl, so I figured my problem was either “work ethic” or “discipline” or “laziness.”

I generally did well on tests, finished most of my homework, and wasn’t a distraction in class. Despite doing everything last minute and being unable to study very much for tests, I could always maneuver my way around assignments and figure out the answer the teacher was looking for. I never received top marks, but it was good enough to get the occasional A-. The evidence was clear to those around me: when I finally “put my mind to it,” I could do just fine! So clearly, it was my fault whenever I struggled.

I also asked a lot of questions in class and loved to get into debates. I loved arguments and loved being challenged. Only when I was in the middle of the action did I feel fully engaged in class. In hindsight, it’s obvious that I was craving stimulation for my dopamine starved brain.

My primary academic problem was I had a hard time focusing on assigned tasks or due dates. It’s not that I didn’t care, it’s that I just couldn’t remember to do any of them.

You know that burst of anxiety when your hand goes into your pocket, and you don’t feel your phone or wallet? Or when you have a sinking feeling that a meeting was supposed to start 30 minutes ago, and you totally forgot about it? I would walk into every single class with that exact feeling.

I tried dozens of times to get organized. I brought countless notebooks, calendars, and even convinced my parents to buy me an iPod Touch because it had a calendar app. I always forgot about these organizational tools, and they were left shamefully abandoned somewhere around my room.

Somehow my grades were admirable, but only because of my secret weapon. Once in a while, an uncontrollable burst of obsessive determination emerged from somewhere deep in my brain. It only turned up during those high stress, desk slamming, pulsating headache, I’ll-never-make-it moments right before some midnight deadline that I should have marked in one of my many long-abandoned calendars.

The secret weapon gave me the confidence that I was going to fool some university into accepting me. While I would never have the ironclad, proud-parents, Honor Roll, never-have-to-borrow-a-pen, infuriating confidence that the Smart Girls had, I was going to make it.

And make it I did. Fortunately, the universities started emphasizing “extracurricular activities” around this time, and I had a gluttony of totally abandoned but "impressive for a kid" side projects that I could offer to prove my worth.

University

Miraculously, I was accepted into the University of British Columbia. When I moved into my dorm, I was bursting with excitement. Living on campus with a bunch of highly motivated young people was exhilarating, but I was secretly hoping that this change of scenery would clear my head and allow me to finally focus. It did not.

This is where I started to think something was wrong with my brain. In high school, I blamed my lack of concentration on the environment and the subjects I was compelled to study. I naively thought, “once I get to university and actually study what I want, I’ll finally be motivated to focus!” Once the initial excitement wore off, I drifted into the same person I was in high school: unable to focus, full of self-doubt, depressed, and feeling like I didn’t belong. An imposter.

It’s painful to admit, but I don’t remember very much about my university classes. Some were highly engaging and fun, and I remember the wonderful people I met, but the lectures were more painful than in high school. Even worse, the exams were more serious and the stress of it all made me buckle down at a higher frequency. I was constantly in an adrenaline-fueled state of emergency.

My grades were mostly awful, but I was fortunate that some of the higher-level classes were more discussion oriented. The stimulation of a class debate helped balance out my academic record, and I completed my degree in four years. I passed every class (some, barely), made many friends, got an exciting internship, and checked off all the boxes I had hoped for. But it was painful.

The Bad Feeling

Despite a successful outcome, the pain I endured on this journey carved a shameful conclusion deep into my identity: I would never be a focused person. I would spend the rest of my life struggling to overcome basic organizational tasks, and I would always be fighting to get motivated. This was The Bad Feeling.

The Bad Feeling is that I am someone who has fooled everyone into thinking I’m "bright." The Bad Feeling says I’ll never be as organized or as disciplined as the Smart Girls. The Bad Feeling is a reminder that being unfocused is part of my identity. It’s my personality. I am not someone who can concentrate, and I will never have this power. Whenever I have some glimpse of success, The Bad Feeling leans back in with its smug glare and says, “why even bother? It didn’t work the first thousand times, did it?”

The Bad Feeling makes me feel like focusing is not something I am capable of. Concentration is for other people. It’s for the Smart Girls and their peers who can get to work on command. I am lazy and disorganized. No matter how many to-do lists, notebooks, apps, or calendar I use, I will always abandon them in a week. All the projects I ever start are destined to be shameful failures. It’s my identity to forever leave a pile of half-finished junk in my wake despite the loud and public enthusiasm I frequently display only days or weeks before.

The worst part about The Bad Feeling is that all the evidence points to it being correct. How many projects did I start on some weekend during a burst of obsessive hyperfocus? How many of those projects did I ever finished? How many half-completed calendars, notebooks, to-do apps, reminders, and white boards do I have lying around in shame? The numbers are not in my favor.

Oh, and then there is the cabal of Bad Feeling enablers. The well-intentioned moral support of friends and family who naively reassure you that you’re indeed smart and brilliant, and “so what if you don’t finish every project? Look at all of the achievements you have in the past. Do you think just anyone could do all the things you’ve done?”

As if you haven’t already read countless “reassuring” posts about “Imposter Syndrome” and its adjacent theories online. The Bad Feeling is correct! You are someone who never finishes what they start. The naive advice you are given is insulting and just makes you feel more pathetic. Your failure to complete projects and inability to remember deadlines isn't some illusion. So you nod along and thank this well-intentioned advisor, and walk away feeling awful. The Bad Feeling remains at the front of your mind.

The worst part about not knowing you have ADHD is that you contextualize all of your failures with the dreadful language you’re so familiar with. It’s "work ethic" or "motivation" or "discipline." You try watching inspirational videos or listening to “epic” soundtracks to try and motivate yourself to focus on what’s in front of you. For me, it was “discipline.” I watched countless videos of Tough Guys talking about Discipline, whispering in deep voices set to the Inception soundtrack. The funniest part was that it worked. At some point, I started waking up every single day at 6am to go to the gym. It didn’t help me focus on my work, but at least I learned how to squat.

I remember one specific day in university. I had an exam the next week, and it was a Saturday night. I said to myself, “this time, it’s going to be different.” I went to bed early and woke up at 6am feeling great. I had everything ready. Papers, notes, last year's exam, a full stomach, a quiet environment, and all of my electronics turned off. I have no idea what transpired between 6am and noon. I can’t remember. But I had made no progress in my studies.

I was probably daydreaming. So I “took a break” and went to the nearby coffee shop to get the largest sugar-infused coffee they had. The drink was good, but it didn’t help. So I decided, “maybe I need to do this with music.” Still nothing. I spent 8 hours in front of my desk with zero progress. I was distraught. I cried in frustration and anger. At some point, my secret weapon, that obsessive desperation, decided it was time to show up. I finally made some progress, but only from 11pm until 1am. The entire day was wasted in misery in return for 2 hours of mediocre, exhausted, red-eyed “progress.”

The next morning (because of Discipline, of course), I woke up at 6am and went to the gym. It was leg day, and I had to follow my workout spreadsheet. “Time for squats, three sets of five reps.” On the very last rep of my final set, I became lost in thought, and I accidentally released the tension in my abdominal muscles. I immediately got sharp back pain and couldn’t exercise properly for a few months.

I had hurt myself because I couldn’t focus.

I couldn’t focus because I was tired.

I was tired because I stayed up late.

I stayed up late because…I couldn’t focus.

This cycle lasted for 3 more years. Every single exam, essay, project, and assignment was a fierce emotional battle to sit still and keep focused. Somehow, I endured, despite feeling like I was tricking everyone into giving me a passing grade.

After university, I found a job with a local tech start-up and things became much more serious. It wasn’t just my exam results anymore. People relied on me to complete my work, and I couldn’t do it properly.

At my job, I had exceptional bursts of productivity, followed by the same lack of focus I had become so accustomed to. The Bad Feeling was now more than just some hidden shame. I was letting other people down. Enough was enough.

Chapter 2 
Getting Diagnosed

The Doctor

I wanted to get tested for ADHD. I went to my family doctor and demanded a referral to an “ADHD specialist.” He happily obliged, and a few weeks later, I was sitting in front of a jolly old man in downtown Vancouver. He asked me what brought me in.

“I think I have ADHD, but I’m not sure. Is there a test for it?”

He laughed and told me there was no test to take, but based on my story, his professional opinion was that I might benefit from stimulant medication. He was an incredibly nice guy, but he was also a doctor. This meant his treatments were based on the statistical results of large pharmaceutical trials. Stimulants are proven to have a statistical net positive effect in helping those with ADHD symptoms control their focus, so that’s what he gave me.

Ritalin, Adderall, Vyvanse, Dexedrine, I tried them all. After testing several dosages and brands, we found a combination that didn’t give me side effects.

The pills really worked. It was like putting glasses on for the first time. I could actually sit down and do one task and complete it. In one sitting. Was this what everyone else felt like?

I came to the realization that those who I had assumed were so much smarter and more organized than me just had this ability naturally. Now I had that power too.

My doctor was a wonderful guy. He genuinely cared about my life and my well-being, and I will always be thankful to have met him. But apart from helping me find the right medication, he didn’t offer anything else. No strategies. No coping mechanisms. No practical advice.

What the nice doctor didn’t tell me was that despite my new mental powers, I would still jump from task to task just like before. I could focus on completing tasks now, but actually choosing those tasks in a logical way was a skill I did not yet possess.

What Medication Does

Stimulant medication works very well in a microscopic sense. Once you get down to work, you can generally continue that work until it’s complete. But medication does not function in a broader, macroscopic context. There was no method to the chaos. The chaos just became more focused.

Medication is an essential part of the solution for most people. For myself, it feels like the gears in my brain are finally starting to turn. Unfortunately, I still lacked the conscious decision making required to take full advantage of my new ability to concentrate. Productive chaos is still chaos.

It’s like upgrading the tires on your car. You immediately have more grip, better steering, and an increase in confidence while driving on slippery surfaces, but even the best tires in the world can’t decide which road to take.

What Next?

In hindsight, it’s bizarre that I was fully diagnosed with ADHD and given only medication. My doctor didn’t help me build a plan nor did he recommend that I go see an ADHD coach or therapist. He simply made sure the surface level symptoms I was experiencing were alleviated.

I struggle to blame him since this story is not unique. ADHD is one of the most widely studied neurological conditions in the world, yet the only consensus remedy is to send patients along their merry way with stimulant medication. There is a systemic issue at hand.

The reason is simple. It’s impossible to commodify and bundle customized life strategies for each individual. You cannot sell organizational skills as a packaged good. It takes self-reflective work to become a professional with ADHD who isn’t continually suffering. Unfortunately, that’s not a profitable business while medication is.

How Much Did Medication Help Me?

Medication became roughly 40% of my solution. When choosing what to work on, I could finally complete the tasks up to the standards in my head. The persisting issue was my inability to correctly choose those tasks. When my boss or co-workers sent me messages, I would immediately context switch out of what I was working on. I completed the newly requested task with total disregard for what I was working on before. I was not trained to pause and make conscious decisions about where to direct my focus. I had no systems in place and no habits to fall back on. I was a ball of focused energy that kept switching targets whenever something new came up. There was a different kind of focus that I did not possess.

All of the context switching brought with it emotional deregulation. I had constant ups and downs because of how often I was changing the subject of my concentration. In general, I was focused and happy. Then I would get a hint of anxiety about some future issue and start laser focusing on whatever the pending catastrophe was. I was context switching out of a good mood. It was not uncommon for me to become rapidly irritated at something insignificant. By then, I was more aware of the greater context of my ADHD and its symptoms and realized I needed an expert. I was still struggling, but in a more focused way.

So, years after I should have, I went to therapy

Chapter 3 
Going to Therapy

Therapy Is Good

Therapy is generally good. Most therapists have seen a vast array of different emotions across all kinds of people. They’ve met hundreds if not thousands of patients over their careers, and they know what ADHD looks & feels like. I encourage anyone who has emotional issues to see a therapist.

Even if you feel fine, I recommend seeing a therapist at some point in your life. It’s healthy and it feels good. Professional athletes all have some form of a personal trainer, even though they’re at the top of their game. Therapy is no different.

My experience with therapy was eye-opening and immensely helpful. The initial desire to see a therapist came from my emotional deregulation. The daily ups and downs of my emotional state was causing stress on both myself and my partner.

Most of the time, I was a positive, kind, and funny person. But inevitably, I would get wound up about something trivial and explode with frustration. I never caused any physical harm, but my presence became a source of stress and anxiety for those around me.

This led to a feedback loop of frustration. I would get frustrated about being frustrated, which would then cause me to get more frustrated, and so on.

The worst part was that logically I could determine in the moment that I was radiating negative energy, and I could see in real-time how this affected others. I just didn’t know how to stop it. And with the downs eventually came the ups.

After I got frustrated, I would rapidly get back to my baseline, humorous self. Those around me could not rebound so quickly, and I was left trying to smooth over the emotional devastation I had just caused. Imagine your anxiety rising because of someone’s explosive frustration, but by the time you’re ready to face the negativity, that person has already calmed down and moved on. It’s not a nice thing to impose on anyone.

Therapy’s main benefit was that it helped me figure out why this was happening. My newfound objective understanding gave me the few seconds I needed to pause, take a deep breath, and turn away from my anxiety before it bubbled over.

I suspect that ADHD’s stimulation problem has something to do with my outbursts of frustration. There is evidence to suggest that this is another part of executive dysfunction, and nearly every single person I have interviewed has also had some form of outburst issue. In the end I think it’s as simple as this: our brains are constantly seeking stimulation, and anger is highly stimulating.

Therapy Is Not Always Good

Therapy is a useful tool to help you become more objective about your emotions, but it has limitations. Not all therapists have the experience or insight to help you with specific ADHD issues.

I have seen a few different therapists, and none of them genuinely understood ADHD. They all seemed to have the same generic textbook understanding with varying degrees of the same infantilizing advice:

“Don’t be so hard on yourself. You’re doing fine.”
“So what if you’re unproductive? Productivity is not representative of your self-worth.”
“Try to set your goals a little lower!”
“Your desire for constant productivity is problematic and rooted in capitalism.”

You’ll notice that none of these phrases are practical solutions for the problems we desperately want to solve. I don’t care if productivity isn’t representative of my self-worth, I want to be productive! They are all ways of dismissing your symptoms of executive dysfunction and shifting the blame towards external forces. Regardless of how you feel about capitalism, completing a project you’re genuinely interested in or showing up to an appointment on time are real goals that we want to achieve.

I did an informal survey on Twitter, where I asked those who have visited a therapist for ADHD if they found it helpful. Of the 48 respondents, 54.2% claimed that therapy was not helpful for their ADHD. When I dug in, many said that talking to others online was the first time they really received any useful advice.

I’m hesitant to criticize therapy since it did help nearly half the respondents to my little survey. Still, many of the people I have spoken with had the same experience: therapy was immensely helpful for general emotional issues, while unhelpful for anything related to practical ADHD advice. The most problematic part is the clear gap of understanding they have while displaying full confidence in their treatment. For myself, it was only after I told my therapist that I didn’t want to see him anymore that he finally pointed me in the direction of his colleague who exclusively dealt with ADHD patients. Why the hell didn’t he say so earlier? It sounds like I wasn’t the one who had a problem rooted in capitalism, it was him.

Be Curious

I don’t want to dismiss therapists. I just want to caution you that you will have to search around if you don’t find a good fit on the first try. Many professionals assume their potentially decades-old academic education is still relevant and avoid furthering their understanding as the years go on.

Unfortunately, this isn’t only related to mental health counseling. I have suffered from lower back pain for the majority of my adulthood. You might recall the story of my back pain when I lost focus during a gym session. I spent hundreds of dollars on physiotherapists, chiropractors, and athletic therapists. They all gave me dismissive advice about how I need to keep my back straight, lift lighter weights, or simply quit weightlifting altogether. One of them told me I had to continue coming in and receive weekly massages for at least a year. The other recommended some exercises to “stabilize my core.” None of this advice was effective, nor were any of them diagnosing the real problem.

It turns out I just had stiff hip joints, and a 10-minute YouTube video gave me all the stretching exercises I needed. My back feels great now. Am I one unfortunate example, or part of a broader issue of crappy professionals who just want you to keep coming in for bullshit treatment? YouTube is no replacement for a therapy, and I was lucky to find the right video.

Furthermore, these are just my own anecdotes, so please don’t flat out reject all professional advice. But I do urge you to be curious and cautious. Always get a second or third opinion if something doesn’t feel right or isn’t working, especially when it comes to your health.

Finally, there is an emerging field called “ADHD coaching.” These are not therapists. These are people who usually have ADHD themselves and have firsthand experience with the disorder. If you can afford it and don’t have any other underlying emotional issues to sort out, I highly recommend looking into an ADHD coach instead.

Chapter 4 
Bad Advice

The term neurotypical describes people who do not have ADHD or any other significant mental health issues. Neurotypical people don’t understand what it’s like to have ADHD, and most steer respectfully clear of offering unqualified opinions on the subject. Regrettably, that is not always the case. It is wise to identify and avoid the incorrect assistance some tend to offer, even if they have good intentions.

“Have you tried trying?”

Many people think ADHD is an effort problem. I even thought this was the case as well. It’s entirely possible you felt this way too. But after some time, you will come to realize that your productivity is totally disconnected from the effort you put in. Many don’t realize this.

Their advice is usually something like “try harder” or that you should “put in more effort.” Or maybe they call you “lazy.” They might even go off about “work ethic” or some other 1950s trope that conveniently makes them feel better. Or maybe they tell you that you just “need a good cup of coffee” or should “apply yourself” more.

In a way, these are optimistic viewpoints. They respect your talent and assume you are one small conscious decision away from being successful. In every other way, it’s insulting and disrespectful to the incredible effort we already put in every single day.

People with ADHD actually try very hard. It costs us additional mental effort to keep our concentration alive. Neurotypical people do not suffer from such a high mental effort expenditure. Their energy is mostly spent during the initial starting point of a task, with far less upkeep required once they get going. When neurotypical people say something like “just get started, and everything will work itself out,” they falsely assume that persistence is just as easy for you as it is for them. This advice also fails to build a complete solution. Getting started is not the only hard part of ADHD.

Finally, the “try harder” advice presupposes you make consistent, active decisions to procrastinate. This assumption transforms our ADHD symptoms into a conscious moral failure. It’s insulting and dismissive of the battle you fight every day just to stay focused. Laziness is a choice, ADHD is not.

BEAST MODE

Speaking of effort, have you ever watched an “epic” video on YouTube to try and get yourself motivated? Something with an all-caps cringy title like “BEAST MODE” with some reference to a lion or tiger.

For one specific moment, a motivational speech might be able to jolt you into action. That’s because it’s highly stimulating, but it always fades in the long run.

Think about a specific time when you felt truly motivated. Maybe it was while playing a sport you really enjoy, or while you were in the middle of a captivating novel. Your brain finally starts firing on all cylinders. Everything feels smooth and buttery. Obstacles fade away, your confidence skyrockets, and everything just clicks. Some call this “flow.”

Did you grind it out? Did you have to watch a video to get motivated? Did you go BEAST MODE and just “get over it”? Did you go hard? Did you embrace tiger mentality?

Or did it feel pretty easy and natural?

The motivational speech or epic music only inspired you the first time because of a massive dopamine rush. It was a trick. A hack. If it worked the first time, why didn’t it work the second time? Why don’t you just watch motivation videos every day? Just go BEAST MODE again. Right?

If you watch your favorite movie every day, it will no longer be interesting after a few days. The same is true for motivational videos.

Do not fall for the BEAST MODE trap. Nobody can do long-term productive work with angry energy. And besides, if you’re basing your work ethic on a lion, you should realize they sleep for 20 hours every day. It’s just not a good parallel for human motivation.

“This must be just another ADHD mania.”

When I started talking about ADHD to my friends and family, there were a few that began to think of themselves as amateur therapists. Each time I revealed I was working on something new, it was instantly judged through the lens of the few sensitive personal details I had revealed to them. Anything I was excited about was immediately labeled as “just another of Rob’s big ideas he’ll never finish.”

If a third party begins to co-opt terminology that they know nothing about, just walk away. It’s not worth having an argument with someone who wants to play armchair therapist. You are the one with the ADHD brain, you are the one who gets to decide what you’re going through.

“Everyone is a little ADHD!”

ADHD is a battle you fight every day. You don’t “a little bit” fight this battle. You fight the whole damn thing. Daily.

I don’t care if someone “feels that way sometimes.” ADHD is not a feeling. It’s a neurodevelopmental disorder. A few hours of brain fog from a hangover is not the same as having ADHD. Forgetting your keys is not “a little bit of ADHD.”

Yes, everybody has trouble with focus from time to time. That’s a given, but the symptoms are not the underlying disorder. People with ADHD get distracted, but that doesn’t mean getting distracted is ADHD.

ADHD is about having chronic symptoms. You chronically have problems focusing. Not once in a while.

It’s frustrating to hear this, but it’s understandable. People tend to try and explain their feelings by relating to others, and that might be the limit of someone’s vocabulary. Oh well.

“Sugar Causes ADHD!”

Sugar does not cause ADHD.

“Maybe you just need to set smaller goals?”

This is a typical response when you abandon a project you were initially passionate about. A friend notices and advises you that you should try and set smaller goals. Notice they don’t tell you to chop up a larger project into smaller pieces. Instead, they tell you to achieve less.

It’s terrible advice because big goals actually aren’t the problem. You have a problem with sustainable work over extended periods of time. You have a sustainability problem, not a goal problem, and we’ll talk about this later.

Besides, someone told me I shouldn’t write this book.

“You seem to be manic right now, maybe set a smaller goal?”

Oops.

“You just need to set a deadline and stick to it!”

“I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by.”

— Douglas Adams

Deadlines are important. They are an essential piece of any good plan.

I gave myself a deadline for this book, and it helped shape how my days were structured. It allowed me to create a plan on how to start writing. It enabled me to start my journey without being aimless. Deadlines should be your north star.

But deadlines are just an arbitrary date and time that helps inform a larger plan. They don’t actually do anything.

Let’s examine how deadlines are used. Suppose you tell yourself the following:

“I will complete all of my homework this weekend.”

What happens? Nothing!

All you’ve done is create productivity debt that comes calling on Sunday evening. A deadline is not a plan or strategy. It’s just impending doom!

Aha! But the second part of the advice is that you need to actually stick to your deadlines! This advice assumes that:

a.) you can adhere to any deadline as a conscious choice, and
b.) you weren’t already trying your best to stick to existing deadlines.

Deadlines are only helpful when they are correctly constructed and followed through with a consciously designed plan. Setting a deadline that requires extreme effort will just produce pain and lead to failure.

Remember, we want to build long term sustainable productivity, not a series of exhausting sprints.

This all comes back to the idea of needing to build a system. A deadline is a date that some measurable goal must be accomplished by. It is not a system in and of itself.

I will go over how to use deadlines in Part 4, but for now, just note deadlines are variables that inform the construction of a plan, nothing more.

Toxic Positivity

Many of these are examples of Toxic Positivity. Toxic Positivity is when you reveal some bad feelings to someone, and they reward you with insulting and unhelpful advice.

Generally, they take the form of prescribing good results.

“Just think happy thoughts!”

Well, happy thoughts are not some choice to make. You also can’t “just get started” on command. You have ADHD, your brain prevents you from starting. There is no conscious decision to make.

Toxic Positivity subtly assumes that you have the power to make changes as quickly as you can decide to take a drink of water.

Avoid Toxic Positivity.

Chapter 5 
Time & Energy

Time Blindness

Do you chronically lose track of time, miss appointments, or forget what day it is? This is called Time Blindness. You flow into some activity but are suddenly thrust back into reality as you check the time or date. A wave of anxiety washes over you as you realize you’re late. For what, exactly? Sometimes your anxiety is about nothing. You’re so used to forgetfulness that you treat it as the default setting. Sometimes, you’ve actually missed something important.

Time blindness usually happens when we get fully engrossed into something. Our brain finally gets stimulated, and everything around us becomes invisible.

One remedy I found is to make a habit of checking the time as often as possible. However, once you start checking the time, you might start bargaining with the remaining minutes on your schedule.

“I have 15 more minutes, I’ll use this whole thing up. I’ll definitely stop right before I have to do that other thing.”

What inevitably happens is you never stop right when you need to. That extra 15 minutes turns into more bargaining. Soon, you realize it’s been an extra hour. What you need to realize is that stopping early means you have more energy left. You don’t need to use all of your energy all the time.

Write down some notes for tomorrow and just stop. Those extra 15 minutes were not going to produce any significant difference in whatever task you’re working on. Personally, the extra time you’ve negotiated with yourself is just obsessive tinkering anyway.

Time blindness is annoying, but it’s also harmful to your productivity. If you spend 2 hours tinkering with a spreadsheet instead of just completing a simple task, you’ve wasted 2 hours of your precious energy on a non-productive task. Was that extra tinkering worth it? Sometimes it is, but most often you’ve just drained yourself and now you can’t complete the next task you wanted to do.

Energy

ADHD requires mental energy management. Without active monitoring, we get burned out. With an ADHD brain, focus has an overhead cost. We fight all day trying to maintain focus on what we want to do. Ironically, we try overcoming our depleted energy levels by using even more energy. You might refer to this method as “forcing yourself.”

Forcing yourself is not a good idea. It’s draining, frustrating, and doesn’t even work. Have you ever successfully forced yourself into a productive state? I know I haven’t.

With the proper strategy, you could just avoid these energy traps altogether. It would make your life much easier, wouldn’t it? Have you ever tried to make conscious decisions about when to use your mental energy? For a very long time, I didn’t. I just kept trying to push myself every single day with any mental energy I had to spare. It’s no wonder I felt like shit all the time. I was burned out almost every single day.

Even worse, the productivity you achieve is never good enough. Whenever I had an amazing day full of productivity and progress, I would feel guilty about not doing even more. If my day was just average, I felt guilty about not having an amazing day. Finally, when the inevitable bad days showed up, I would feel self-loathing for not having just an average day.

I was never happy. I naively tried to force myself to be as productive as possible for as long as possible. Ironically, it was only once I stopped trying so hard that my productivity actually increased.

Did you know 8-time bodybuilding world champion Ronnie Coleman only went to the gym for one hour per day in his prime? He is one of the most prolific bodybuilders in history, and he spent most of his time away from the gym. He figured out what the optimal strategy was to achieve his goals and executed it. He then went home, ate a lot of food, and didn’t train until the next day.

Bodybuilding and mental productivity are not exactly the same, but there are lessons to be learned from how world champions design their routines. Tobi Lutke, the CEO of Shopify, works 40 hours per week and sleeps 8 hours every night. It sounds unproductive because we’ve been fed the idea that productivity is just a function of time. Each additional hour, we’re told, leads to an additional unit of productivity. This is incongruent with reality.

Both Ronnie Coleman and Tobi Lutke prove that you can achieve amazing things without burning yourself out. You don’t need to be in a constant state of mental push. You don’t need to fight your brain all day. Mental breaks and quality rest are vital assets for pro-athletes and billionaire CEOs alike. At first glance, this might feel I’m prescribing an allowance for laziness. But I think it’s backwards to look at it that way. Rest and recovery are strategic maintenance activities designed to keep your brain healthy and productive in a sustainable way.

More importantly, you must recognize that ADHD gives us additional cognitive overhead for any activity we’re trying to do. We expend more energy than the average person by just keeping our focus. You need to take that into consideration before prescribing yourself more effort or trying to force yourself to be more productive.

You need to define when and where to use your limited pool of mental energy every day. You also need to configure your life in such a way that you avoid burning out. I don’t know the right amount of sleep you need every night, nor do I know how many hours you should work every day. That depends on both you and the activity you’re trying to do. I will talk about a framework for this in a later chapter, but for now I want to emphasize how important it is to actively manage your mental energy. This is the basis of your ADHD strategy. You must also accept that not every day is going to be productive. Sometimes, you must consciously acknowledge that you’re having a bad day and that it’s time to step away from your work. The bad days will happen from time to time, but if you manage them properly, your good days will become more frequent.

Brain Hacks

If you have ever dove into the world of self-help gurus and “influencers,” you have received a flood of different types of tips or productivity tricks. Perhaps you found an ad for “one weird trick to help you stay productive!” This is a world known as Brain Hacks—yet another example of Toxic Positivity.

Brain Hacks exist in a strange reality where well-polished YouTubers and “thought leaders” swear by some simple habit they use to solve all their problems. Consciously or not, you’ve probably used some of them. Perhaps you tried a new journaling technique, or you created a “Kanban board” for yourself with sticky notes or used an online tool like Trello or JIRA. You may have even heard of the Pomodoro Technique and downloaded the app. Like me, you subsequently forgot about it and never used it again. I’ve tried many of these Brain Hacks myself. Most of them are bullshit, and a few of them are useful tools. But useful tools are not a strategy.

The problem with one-size-fits-all techniques is that our brains are not the same. ADHD has many discrete manifestations. ADHDers might have many common symptoms, but that doesn’t mean we can overcome them in all the same ways. Even stimulant medication has different side-effects for different people. Some people require different dosages. Some work better with different types or brands of medication. Some people don’t need any medication at all.

Furthermore, if any of these Brain Hacks were a comprehensive solution, they would be ubiquitous amongst the ADHD community. They aren’t. These are microscopic solutions. Your new bullet journaling technique might help you stay organized when part of a broader strategy, but the bullet journal itself is not a solution. It’s just a tool.

Microscopic vs. Macroscopic

Brain Hacks and other tricks, at least the ones that are useful, are microscopic in nature. Writing in a journal, using an organizational app, or drinking a healthy amount of water are all microscopic activities. These are specific actions you that you perform, not strategies. If your actions aren’t part of a consciously designed strategy, they’re not going to get you anywhere.

A strategy is macroscopic. It’s long-term. It’s your way of life. A strategy is a plan of action designed to achieve one or more goals. A strategy is the collection of microscopic activities you do, as well as how & when you do them. A strategy also contains guidelines for what to do when you get off track. A new journaling technique by itself is insufficient in solving these wider issues.

The Other Problem with Brain Hacks

The other problem with Brain Hacks and other forms of Toxic Positivity is that they are far too generic. This is by design. If you share a specific trick, it needs to be as broad as possible so that everyone can use it. They are marketed as specific mental tools or actions you can use to overcome your problems, but we already know that everyone has a different brain, so how can one tool or trick work for everyone? It’s a paradox.

If you have no comprehensive strategy and no direction, where exactly do you think a Brain Hack is taking you? This isn’t a criticism or indictment against all mental tools or tricks. It’s quite the opposite. You just have to realize that all of the quick tips or methods are simple tools for very specific situations. They might not work for you, even if you try your best. Don’t get discouraged if something you try doesn’t work.

Tools are meant to solve specific problems. One screwdriver is meant to tighten a particular size and shape of screw. Even if a screwdriver is what you need for a specific task, it won’t work in all situations. There is no such thing as a universal screwdriver.

Tools are meant to live in a toolbox. Brain Hacks, tips, tricks, productivity methods, apps, and even this book are just tools. They are meant to live in your toolbox. It’s essential to have them, but it’s equally important to know when and where to use them.

Chapter 6 
Finding Our Own Tools

Doodling to Focus

I have a distinct memory of being in elementary school. The teacher was lecturing us, and I was only able to listen intently if I could draw and doodle on my paper. I felt great! I was able to focus!

A few minutes later, she came to my desk and scolded me.

“No doodling. This is a worksheet, not a sketchbook.”

I am a child of immigrant parents. I was intensely afraid and insecure about my place in society, given that I am not “from here.” I immediately complied with the rules out of fear. I was not able to focus after that. Just writing about this makes me irrationally angry. The classroom authority was chastising me because she assumed that I was not listening to her. And for what? Drawing silly shapes on the worksheet?

It was the mid-90s, and this teacher was a bit older. She likely had little understanding of ADHD. Regardless of her attitude, it was one of the many instances of my dopamine-starved brain being forced into compliance within a system that rarely worked for me.

You probably have similar stories. You found some small way to keep your mind focused, or perhaps some interest that finally drew you in. The adults in your life scolded you for it because it did not fit the “proper” mold.

Doodling in class to stay focused was not a sign of disrespect. It was me finding my own way to accomplish what was asked of me. My teacher should have said nothing. Better yet, she could have asked me about it. I would have told her it helps me listen, which would have then given her a new way of understanding her student.

For many, creative outlets have been our saviors and even turned into careers, despite what authority figures think. You might be an artistic ADHDers who loved to draw or paint, but your parents told you to “put that shit away and start studying.” Maybe you were a kid who spent your nights on forums or programming communities but were told you needed to get good grades rather than “wasting” your time online. Or perhaps you had some other passion that finally let you focus and feel good, only to have it taken away by physical force or emotional wrath. All because the authoritative figures in your life never understood what makes you tick.

Whatever helps you stay focused or cope with your attention issues, just keep doing it. As long as it’s not disruptive to anyone else, you have every right as a human being to do what makes you feel good.

Creativity vs. Compliance

Remember that kid in class who was always disruptive and just couldn’t pay attention? Maybe it was even you. Why do they get labeled as “hyperactive”? Children are not designed to sit still and comply. They want to explore and play and have fun. You can scream and shout about how essential multiplication tables are, but the fact is creativity and great work aren’t born from disciplined, quiet children who comply at all costs. Great work is born from the rebellious and courageous who can explore and learn without being reprimanded.

Then there is the definition of “hyperactive” itself. ADHD children aren’t hyperactive. They are bored. Their brains are so unstimulated by whatever it is they’re being taught that they have the overwhelming urge to stand up and do something else. Or maybe their source of stimulation is their own imagination. There is no “fault” or “failure” here. These children are physically unable to comply. They know that they should pay attention, but they can’t. They start to associate their uncontrollable non-compliance with failure. Their parents and teachers scold them. Yet they can’t sit still. Do they think their child is a little shit who hates them? Do they think their kid likes feeling like a failure? Or is their child continuously losing a battle every single day, trying to do what their parents have asked them to do?

The only thing accomplished by forcing compliance on children is to make them hate themselves. Every single day they can’t pay attention is another day added to the pile of evidence that they are destined for failure. They know they should pay attention. But there simply isn’t enough dopamine hitting the right places in their brains to make them do it.

The scolding never stops once these children become adults. By the time they start their careers, they have internalized this self-loathing and will spend the rest of their lives stuck in the artificial mental boundaries inflicted by the system. It’s an eternal cycle of self-doubt and feelings of failure.

Then one day, these ADHD adults find something they really like doing. Perhaps they re-kindled their love of art or rediscovered their long-lost joy for programming. They start diving in, but they feel like failures no matter how much they produce. One day perhaps they get a job with one of these skills. They feel as though they’ve slid through the cracks.

“Everyone is fooled. I’m not skilled. One day they will find out that I don’t belong here.”

This is Imposter Syndrome fueled by the decades of scolding and perceived failures they lived through. They feel like they can’t succeed, despite any evidence to the contrary. They might even be excellent at what they do, but the feeling of being an imposter is inescapable. I feel like this all the time. Do you?

“We’ve fooled them for now. They’re going to find out one day that I’m not actually good at this job, I just Google around 90% of my problems.”

“I shouldn’t ask for a better salary. I’m not that good. I don’t deserve it.”

“They gave me some award, I don’t think it means anything. If this doesn’t work out, I’ll go back to my old job, it wasn’t so bad.”

“I never actually studied computer science, I’m self-taught, so I don’t really understand the fundamentals. They’ll find out eventually and I’ll get fired.”

If any of these quotes sound like you, then the system has failed you. It made excellent person hate themselves because they couldn’t comply with an arbitrary system not designed for how their brain works.

I’m going to start talking about things that are actually your fault now. But before I do, I want you to remember that you’re not an imposter.

Everything you’ve accomplished in your life is real. You haven’t tricked anyone. This is reality.

You are real.

Part 2

The Harsh Truths about ADHD

Chapter 7 
The Harsh Truths about ADHD

ADHD is a neurodevelopmental disorder. You have executive dysfunction. Your brain has difficulties with certain tasks. Despite your brain circuitry, you can’t use this as an excuse.

It’s fun to talk about “neurotypicals,” but they’re humans with feelings just like you are. Missing appointments or forgetting deadlines is not excusable because of your brain. You are disappointing people that are relying on you. Whether it’s a project at work or something at school, being late or missing deadlines is a frustrating reality for everyone involved. ADHD might be the underlying cause of these problems, but your failure to plan ahead for the brain circuitry you know you have is genuine.

Now that you know, you can work on it.

Chapter 8 
Hyperfocus

“ADHD feels like having a bank account with $1,000,000 in it, but you just can’t remember the PIN code.”
— Post on Reddit from a deleted account

The Hyperfocus Paradox

ADHD would be far more straightforward if we didn’t have uncontrollable bursts of superhuman talent. This is called hyperfocus. Some people (mistakenly) call ADHD a superpower because of it. Hyperfocus is not a superpower.

It feels like this:

You wake up one morning with a burning inspiration. It’s an app you want to build or an article you want to write. Perhaps you want to do digital art or learn to make music using a digital audio workstation. It might even be 3d animations or video games. It doesn’t matter what it is, you’ve found The Project.

You skip breakfast, rush to your computer, and get to work.  You hastily download the appropriate software and skip all the instructions. You realize you don’t know how to get started, so you look for YouTube video tutorials. You watch instructional videos at 2x speed because the information isn’t flowing fast enough. You look up guides and documentation. You skim to the important parts. You work with high intensity. Your progress is fascinating.

You eat some trivial snack for lunch just to satisfy your inconvenient lingering hunger (or maybe you forget to eat entirely.) Obstacles are overcome with hilarious ease. This is great. You make incredible progress every single hour as everything just clicks into place. Time Blindness activates, and the hours fly by.

“Finally! I’ve found what I’m passionate about! This is it!"

The Project must continue. You start expanding the scope as you realize how trivial it is to make more and more progress.

“It won’t be one article, it will be an entire blog series!”

“I will make an entire album!”

“This game will have dozens of different features!”

“This app will get millions of downloads!”

You feel superhuman. You are Hyperfocused.

And you really do make amazing progress. Anyone who sees what you completed in just a few hours is bound to be impressed. You share it with some friends, and they’re blown away by what you’ve created. Your progress is truly remarkable – and in such a small amount of time!

You look out your window and realize it’s now dark outside. You finally eat a full meal. While eating, you’re on your phone looking up different techniques and information on how to expand or increase the quality of The Project. You continue your furious pace into the night. Distractions? What are those?

At some point, you realize you are incredibly tired. You just spent the entire day making extreme progress. You are incredibly proud of yourself.

“This might really be the project I was destined to work on!”

The next day is similar, but your pace is less frantic. You’re okay with that because yesterday was so productive. You deserve a bit of a break. You might even play some video games or watch a movie or two. The Project continues to move forward, but your momentum is considerably decreased by the end of the day. You fall asleep instantly that night because of how much mental effort you exerted over the weekend.

Monday rolls around, and you must get to your responsibilities, like work or school. Once you get home, you still feel the excitement of The Project, but you’re a bit more tired and distracted this time. The superhuman productivity of the weekend is nowhere to be found, so you work with medium effort on a smaller piece of The Project, with high hopes for the coming days.

You persist and progress is made bit by bit each day. Perhaps you even take a day off because you’re tired.

A new weekend approaches, and your hopes increase as a brand-new Saturday morning looms before you. You have a normal breakfast this time, and you don’t get to work right away. The Project is still salient in your thoughts, but the productivity of the previous weekend just isn’t there. You continue to work on bits and pieces with success, but you take another “break” after only two hours. Your Hyperfocus is nowhere to be found.

“Working so many hours in a row isn’t healthy anyway. I need to pace myself.”

“Maybe I need to reduce the scope a bit, I’ll work on this part first.”

“I just need to drink some more coffee.”

“Last week was exhausting at work. I need a bit of a break.”

You start using the same language you use when trying to stay focused with your homework or job. The Project is no longer the passion you thought it was.

So you think back to some TED talk or inspirational quote. “Perhaps this isn’t really my passion…” You might even try Forcing Yourself, but to no avail.

Was this project your “destiny” after all? Nope, this previously shiny new project is now just another failure in your long, shameful portfolio.

I have bad news! Regret is not the worst part. Nor is it the shame and embarrassment you feel from abandoning it. The worst part is that you will never forget how productive you felt at the start of the project. You will chase that feeling for the rest of your life. Every day that goes by without hyperfocus will feel like you’re “not living up to your potential.”

“Why can’t I just focus like I did last weekend?”

It’s rational to feel this way. You have real bursts of extreme productivity. You aren’t delusional. You worked at an astonishing pace and accomplished magnificent progress in a minuscule amount of time. It’s not a figment of warped perspective. Your progress was real.

You created terrific, excellent, beautiful work in a fraction of the time it would normally take, and you felt amazing doing it.

“Why the hell can’t I do this more often?”

“Why can’t I get hyperfocused on command?”

And so you dwell. You have wasted potential! Oh, if only you weren’t so lazy. If only you had a better work ethic. If only you had better habits. Habits! Routines! That’s what you’re missing! You need to be more disciplined. You need to read books and watch videos and learn to work hard. You watch videos of inspirational people and read motivating quotes. Tough guys in dark rooms tell you to just get started. You try a new “bullet journaling” method or get yet another checklist. Perhaps you try a new diet. Aha! Maybe you have a food allergy. Or maybe your medication dosage isn’t high enough. Perhaps you need to order some vitamins, supplements, or nootropics.

You enter yet another rabbit hole. You order some stuff online. You try drinking more water. You download a new to-do app. You read books on habits and start taking cold showers. Your new hyperfocus is about hyperfocusing.

When you hyperfocus on hyperfocusing, you are setting yourself up to be disappointed again. Just like before, you see amazing progress in your shiny new “productivity habits” and “techniques”. People are impressed with the New You™, but guess what happens? Eventually you fall off the wagon. Your superhuman ability to follow whatever rigid schedule you came up with fades away. A few weeks later, you look back in shame at how you “got off track again” but this time, there is no hyperfocus there to hype you up again.

What if you did things differently?

A Better Way to Handle Hyperfocus

Hyperfocus is the main reason people speak of ADHD as a “superpower.” It really does look like magic. So why is it a trap?

Hyperfocus is poorly understood in the scientific community. It’s antithetical to the attention issues that ADHDers experience. If we get distracted so easily, why do we randomly get bursts of extreme focus?

The benefits of hyperfocus are obvious. You make extreme progress for short periods of time and feel invincible. But it has many drawbacks.

The main problem is that hyperfocus causes burn-out. The intensity of our concentration can persist for many hours. Some people report that their hyperfocus can last days or even weeks. This sustained effort is hugely taxing on our minds, and we tend to forget to maintain healthy habits or even eat proper meals. This inevitably leads us to exhaustion. For me, the next day is almost like a hangover. I have a hard time paying attention to anything, and I certainly can’t continue working on whatever I was hyperfocused on. This is burn-out.

Why does it burn us out? Hyperfocus is like sprinting as fast as you can. You will get tired. It’s as simple as that. Your mind is working as fast is it can during hyperfocus. You need to take breaks, or it will leave you exhausted.

The other main issue is the inability to pay attention to other responsibilities. Time flies by, and we miss appointments or deadlines. The day turns into night, and we panic as we respond to the messages we were ignoring all day.

Finally, we compare our insane productivity to our normal working abilities.

“Why can’t I be as productive as I was last weekend?”

This leads to unhealthy negative feelings like shame and imposter syndrome.

Fortunately, hyperfocus can be successfully controlled, as long as you have the right mindset. You can use it as a productivity boost whenever it occurs if you maintain mindful, healthy habits around it.

Instead of allowing yourself to work for 10+ hours in a row, try your best to become more aware of when you are in a hyperfocused state. Merely understanding that you are hyperfocused is 80% of the battle. The second step is to mentally tell yourself to take breaks, to check your calendar, eat food, drink water, and pay attention to your other responsibilities. Then, set a reasonable time when you will pull yourself away from your hyperfocus and go do something else.

Seriously, the most effective thing I have ever done with my ADHD brain is to learn how to stop. Every single time I stop myself, I get this gut-wrenching fear that I won’t be able to pick it up again the next day. But to my continued surprise, the next day is always much better than if I let myself continue working into the night.

I will go over how to build a full plan without relying on hyperfocus in the Planning chapter, but for now, just try to become more aware of yourself the next time you get hyperfocused.

Chapter 9 
Letting People Down

Disappointing People

If you have ADHD, you will constantly disappoint people. If you have at least some empathy, you will constantly feel bad.

We fail to deliver on promises all the time. Your boss or professor or co-worker was relying on you to do something, and you never delivered, or it was late. It’s gut-wrenching. That awful sinking feeling of anxiety is so familiar to us. You didn’t want to fail, in fact you really wanted to do the thing you said you would do. But you didn’t. You couldn’t. Your disappointment leads to bewildered self-loathing.

“Why didn’t I finish the project?

“How come I never even started?”

“Is it a memory problem? Is it a lack of focus? Why do I always find myself in these situations?”

Worst of all, it’s never deliberate. It feels like a series of tiny mistakes you made that somehow transformed into a catastrophic failure.

“Disappointment is part of life”, you might say. While true, this disappointment feels different. This isn’t some random act of nature, your feelings of disappointment are directly connected to your actions (or lack thereof). While it’s true that you can never please everyone, it’s also true that you did promise something, and you broke that promise. Failing to deliver is not a moral failure, but you did cause some measure of harm to the person who was relying on you. It’s disingenuous to pretend otherwise. It’s also imperative that you get a grasp on your unreliability. It’s not just about disappointing others, it’s also about disappointing yourself. If you aren’t confident in your own promises to yourself, how can you make promises to others?

Excuses

ADHD makes us excellent excuse-makers for two reasons. First, coming up with an excuse on the spot is highly stimulating. Second, we practice. A lot.

Much like failing to finish projects, missing deadlines and appointments isn’t something we do with conscious effort. We find out about these forgotten dates in a split second. Someone mentions a deadline, and we get an immediate drop in our stomachs because we realize we are long past overdue. Anxiety hits our brains at light speed. A nanosecond later, our brains are already generating a clever excuse about why we haven’t completed it. Since this happens so often, we become seasoned veterans of making excuses.

Sometimes these excuses are clever. You might come up with a reason why your particular assignment is not currently available. As your poker-face fades, you rush home to start working on it.

This also makes us fantastic at working frantically when there is an immense negative pressure to complete an assignment. Unfortunately, we get away with pulling off miracles, so we start to rely on it.

Our ability to create excuses isn’t a superpower. It’s a skill we’ve practiced over time. We make excuses because we fail so often. We forget deadlines, we are late with projects, we miss small details, and we never start on time. We let other people down. This is real. This is painful.

It’s also not your fault. This is just how your ADHD brain works. There is no magical solution hidden around a corner or a magic pill you can take. Even the highest strength stimulant medication can’t fix decades of brain habits.

The good news is that practice clearly works for us. Just like we perfected our ability to make up excuses over time, we can improve our reliability over time. All we need to do is practice, and practice in the right areas.

Practicing hyperfocus is the wrong area to practice. Practicing a balanced approach and understanding your brain? Now that’s where you will see a massive benefit.

Chapter 10 
Letting Yourself Down

Ask yourself this question: have you realized your full potential? I don’t mean in the way your parents or teachers might ask you. I mean personally, are you satisfied with your life?

Have you accomplished the goals you set out for yourself? Are you who you want to be by now? Personally, I can’t answer this without cringing at the thousands of hours I’ve wasted on video games and the many dozens of projects I’ve abandoned.

When I was in university, I convinced a few friends to help me build a dating app. The idea was like Tinder, but this was years before Tinder first came out. I came up with the idea, but I cringe when I remember how much work my friends did when I was busy being distracted. After the initial excitement about the project, my motivation evaporated. Whenever I finished my schoolwork, I would sit at my computer and try desperately to do work on the project. I just couldn’t do it. You probably know this feeling very well. I just couldn’t get to work, no matter how hard I tried.

I still cringe at how poor of a teammate I was. Even worse, it was my dream to build a popular app with my friends and move to Silicon Valley. Why the hell didn’t I follow through? I was so close. The worst part was that people loved the app. We had hundreds of users at our university within the first month of launching it. But I just didn’t follow through. I stopped working on it, and my friends eventually moved on. All that potential faded away, and eventually Tinder came along and is now worth billions of dollars. I’m not naïve enough to believe I was this close to being a billionaire. Life isn’t that simple. But if I had somehow continued to work on it, I have no doubt that it would have been a huge success.

I used to be purely ashamed of this memory. I still cringe at it, but my hindsight now includes more context. I know why I lost motivation. I was an undiagnosed ADHDer with unrealistic expectations of myself and my abilities. I tried to start a massive project while going to school full-time. Reality wasn’t as glorious I had envisioned. I was awash with stress and anxiety, and I had absolutely no plan. Rather than focusing, I diluted my mental energy even further, and spiraled into self-doubt and shame.

We’ve all had big ideas or projects we wanted to work on, but we never followed through. Years later, it’s obvious what we missed out on. We feel immensely disappointed with ourselves. We let ourselves down.

Does it have to be like this forever? No. The reason I stopped working on that project wasn’t because I lacked effort or because I was stupid. I wasn’t being lazy, I wasn’t a bad teammate. I was someone with a radically different brain than I realized. ADHD brains are built different. That’s just the reality. If I had set my life up in a different way, everything would have been better. It sucks to learn about the right approach after the fact, but at least I know my future projects will go much better, and I think my younger self would have been immensely proud of how much I now know about myself.

Missed Goals

Let’s imagine you set a new goal. In this scenario, you join a 30-day-drawing challenge. You say to yourself:

“I’ve always loved drawing, so I’m going to draw every single day for an entire month!”

Your first day is a triumph and you spend 4 hours on your first drawing. It was supposed to be a “quick sketch”, but you feel ambitious. You haven’t really hyperfocused, maybe just a little bit. You go to sleep late, excited for day two.

“If day 1 was so great, day 30 will be amazing!”

Your excitement continues, but you only draw for 30 minutes on day two. The excitement has already started to fade. You cautiously remind yourself that the point is to do small sketches every day, but subconsciously, you’re already worried about what’s to come.

Day 3 and 4 are awful. Your excitement has fully faded. You spend 10 grueling minutes on each of your pathetic sketches, producing something you are not proud of just to keep the streak going. The excitement of the first two days has totally evaporated. You aren’t drawing for the love of art anymore. You are sketching for the technicality of the promise you made to yourself. You are in productivity debt.

Day 7 never happens. Your drawing habit has ceased. The initial excitement is nowhere to be found and has been replaced by stress and anxiety. You come up with some excuses and you “take a break” for a few days. You never start up again. Day 30 flies by without another drawing, and you cringe because this is yet another project you abandoned. The Bad Feeling returns every time you catch a glimpse of that sketch book, abandoned, lying pathetically on your desk.

Let’s face it: you missed your goal. You set yourself up to do a relatively simple task every day, and you didn’t follow through.

Is this a legitimate reason to be upset with yourself? Or is this part of a journey of self-discovery? Should you be hard on yourself, or should you pat yourself on the back because you genuinely tried a new hobby and just didn’t like it?

On surface level, you did fail. No amount of mental gymnastics or self-care will ever change that. You did not draw every day for 30 days. That’s the reality.

But is this failure something to be ashamed of? Do you deserve to hate yourself? Should you embrace the pain?

The only person who cares deeply about your missed goal is you. But if you cared so much about this goal, why didn’t you follow through with passionate fury? It’s because you’re considering the meta-aspect of the goal a failure. You never failed to draw. Every time you sat down to draw in your book, you actually did put pen to paper. What you failed to do was continue the arbitrary mental construct around the drawing.

So is the challenge itself a failure? Do you just need a different structure? It’s complicated.

First, your failure has nothing to do with sketching. Your failure is with the 30-day-challenge itself. Are you upset that you didn’t continue this arbitrary challenge? If yes, then it means this was never about the drawing in the first place. You chose to do something because of the shiny new rigid structure that promised you success. While, rigid structures are useful, they’re just tools.

Think about it like this: you bought a shiny new hammer and had fun randomly hitting nails for a few days. But after a while, randomly hitting nails gets boring. You need a larger purpose. You got excited about a 30-day-challenge and tried to bootstrap that around a hobby you thought you might enjoy.

Secondly, you failed. You had a vision and a plan of action, but your vision never became reality. You genuinely wanted to improve at drawing or sketching and it just didn’t happen. It’s tempting to think that all success should be without hardship, but is that what happened? We will always have days where we just don’t feel like working on something. But how do we know when we’re in the middle of something worth doing versus something we genuinely should quit? Understanding this in the moment is difficult, but we do have good indicator over the long run: guilt.

If you stopped drawing after a few days and have no feelings of guilt and no desire to draw ever again, then you did the right thing. If you do feel guilty however, then it means you quit too early. This guilt might show up weeks or months later, but if it does, it means you screwed something up with your plan. You think you don’t like sketching, but maybe you just discovered that 30-day-challenges aren’t for you? Just try again. There’s no shame is dropping something for a while and then coming back to it with a different plan. The only person who cares or notices is you.

In the case of my dating app, guilt is all I feel. It’s too late for me to come back to that project, but the guilt helped me understand that the project was worth doing. I didn’t quit because I wanted to quit, I abandoned the project because my brain was a complete mess, and I had no idea how to handle such a large project. While I can’t escape the cringe when I look back in hindsight, I can also look back and remember what it feels like to work on something I believe in. This understanding is part of tacit knowledge. We’ll get to this in Part 3, but just remember that all of your missed goals are part of a larger body of work which can be immensely useful in the future.

Unrealized Potential

Beyond specific goals, ADHD carries around with it a common thread of unrealized potential. Why does every ADHDer seem to feel this way? Probably because we were constantly described that way by unsuspecting adults in our lives when we were younger. Teachers, parents, coaches, they too were fooled by our fleeting hyperfocus. It’s not their fault, our output legitimately looked like “unrealized potential” to them. It looks like that to us as well. So they described us as “lazy” or said something like “if only they put their mind to it…”

We already talked about missing goals and abandoning projects, but what about the general feeling of not working hard enough? Does ADHD make us lazy?

We’re not lazy. We can be extremely productive, as mentioned in the Hyperfocus chapter. In general, it feels good to be productive. We want to be productive. So, when we get struck by Hyperfocus, we try to overleverage those moments into long term productivity. We create fantasies in our minds where we can be hyperfocused for weeks or months at a time. These fantasies inflate our expectations and ego, and we also try to show these adults that we really aren’t lazy! We try desperately to harness these powers on-demand, but it never works. Years later, we see our inability to harness Hyperfocus as an effort problem, and thus “unrealized potential” is born. Even though I can write this down and explain it, I can’t stop feeling negatively about it.

You’ve likely felt it at some point or another as well. You have talent, but you never put it to good use. I still feel this awful cringe in my gut when I think about all the projects I could have built and released if only I could finish them.

Those websites I abandoned. That guitar I stopped playing. The music production software I deleted. The dating app idea. Unrealized potential.

Again, I think it’s worth remembering that negative feelings are real. Coaches and therapists love to try and smooth over these bumps by pretending everything is okay. “Everybody has projects they don’t finish” or something to that effect. They’re not wrong, but failures also aren’t imaginary.

Furthermore, I agree that self-loathing is a bad idea. I agree that unfinished projects are just a fact of life. But I don’t think it’s useful to dismiss or ignore them. It’s more beneficial to be objective and analyze why you never finished. Why did you stop working on these projects? Why do they make you feel so bad when you think about them? Is it the embarrassment you fear? Do your friends snicker behind your back that you never finish any projects? Or is it something more internal? Do you worry that you won’t live up to your potential if you never finished a project on your own?

Many things can be true at the same time. But let’s push aside this ridiculous circular thinking and be analytical. You have ADHD. You abandon projects. You do have piles of unfinished work. If you had understood your brain better, you would have finished more projects. You could be more successful by now. You did screw up. You let yourself down.

But guess what?

It’s not your fault, and you can do something about it.

Chapter 11 
Take Responsibility

“It is possible to commit no errors and still lose. That is not a weakness…that is life.”

— Captain Jean-Luc Picard, Star Trek: The Next Generation

Your Actions Are Real

I’ve talked about the hidden suffering ADHDers have, yet I am not satisfied with merely pointing them out. Perhaps it’s my imagination going off on a tangent, but I can’t shake the feeling that someone might read this and think that I’ve given them permission to shrug their shoulders if they screw up.

It’s important to think beyond the negative language we are so used to, but it’s equally important not to infantilize ourselves either. Our world is not as malleable as we would like it to be, and there are specific promises and expectations we must adhere to.

As much as we need help and support from our peers, we can’t just give up or use ADHD as a permanent excuse. We must request assistance when necessary, but we must understand that those around us do not have unlimited energy or focus. Being distracted when someone is trying to speak to you is difficult for both of you. Missing an appointment does complicate your doctor’s schedule. Forgetting your spouse’s birthday does upset them. Handing in an essay late will reduce your grade.

Of course, “bad” doesn’t always mean catastrophic. All faults are forgivable, but only if you give back at some point as well. It’s good to know that those around us love us for who we are, but we can’t forget about their feelings. And yes, neurotypical people have feelings too. Having ADHD is an explanation, not an excuse.

I personally suffer from poor memory when it comes to remembering deadlines or appointments. It’s not my fault. My brain just sucks at remembering. However, I found myself on the receiving end of upset people a few too many times for my own comfort. I decided to try and fix those issues. I decided to instantly enter all appointments into my iPhone calendar the second I make or receive them. I started rudely interrupting whoever it is I am arranging these appointments with by instantly opening my calendar app. Now they think I’m “very organized.” If only they knew the truth.

There’s something to be said about growing up and taking responsibility for actions that are within your sphere of influence. If an earthquake happens, we don’t ignore it. We get to work and clean up as best as we can. We didn’t cause continents to shift, and yet we must take responsibility for the cleanup, even if it’s an act of nature.

Similarly, if you miss an appointment because you got distracted, own up to it. Yes, your ADHD may have contributed to it, but you still forgot. It’s not your fault that you were born with an ADHD brain, but it’s your responsibility to understand that and work with it.

Control Feels Good

I’m not saying you should get upset over trivial issues, but you should take control as much as possible.

Once you get yourself under a bit more control, you will start to feel good that you can control your forgetfulness or lack of focus. Perhaps you don’t have perfect control, or maybe it’s just baby steps, but getting just a little bit better is a fantastic feeling. You deserve to feel it.

When I started using my calendar app religiously, I gained control over the pervasive anxiety that dates and appointments gave me. Just like me, you have many tools at your disposal. Before I found something that worked for me, I went through calendars, checklists, bullet journals, dozens of apps, sticky notes, and perhaps 100 different failed attempts at using whiteboards.

Those failed organizational tools are not failures. You just found 100 different methods that don’t work for you. Not only that, but you also tried 100 times harder than the average person does to keep organized. This proves your effort is high, even if it feels bad to think about it.

The same goes for whatever the popular new notes app is. I tried them all. The only thing I found I could keep using was a single folder on my computer with text files. Simple plain text. No crazy checklist features. No calendar integrations. No API to connect to. I can’t even post images in my notes because it’s just text files. What worked the best for me was immediate, quick access. I can open my text editor in under a second. Could I do the same with some bloated app with 1000 different features?

The same goes for my calendar habit. It’s just the default calendar app on my phone. I set it to alert me one day before the appointment, as well as 15 minutes before. It works because it’s fast and straightforward. Also, I’m scared to be late, which has turned into a positive thing. That negative energy I felt about missing an appointment is now a good feeling because I know I’m in control of the situation.

Once you find your tools, you’ll know it. It will feel right. Something just clicks, and you’re no longer as anxious about it. The most critical piece is to keep trying, and the only real failure is to give up.

Chapter 12 
Calendar Anxiety

Phil

A club from my university organized an event for alumni to come hang out and talk with students. I met Phil here. We ended up having lunch a few weeks later because he wanted to learn more about the tech industry.

My own bias labeled him as a keener. I saw him as someone who spends a lot of time on self-improvement and building up his repertoire of skills. He seemed to have a good grasp on his own organizational skills and what I mistakenly assumed was discipline. He wrote detailed notes while we spoke.

Phil asked me about my job and how I ended up working at a tech company. I told him the truth: I felt like I fell ass-backward into it. He laughed and likely assumed I was being coy. To me, he was well on his way to building himself an excellent career.

Years after our lunch, I wrote a blog post about having ADHD and how it has affected me and my career. Phil was the first one to reach out. He sent me a lengthy message detailing the many parts of my own experience that he resonated with.

We were both suffering from ADHD when we had our first lunch, yet we never spoke about it. We were both fighting internally to pay attention. He was taking notes. Perhaps that was stimulating enough for him to continue paying attention. I was likely fidgeting with my coffee cup.

After Phil reached out, we started having regular video calls. They started out as ad hoc Zoom calls “once in a while” but eventually evolved into a regular habit. We share notes and thoughts about ADHD and seek each other’s advice on career goals.

One day, our call was scheduled for 2:00pm. When we first agreed to this time, I knew to instantly add this event to my calendar app. I had reminders and notifications all set. I was prepared.

As noon rolled around, I started to think about the call.

Every single time I’ve spoken with Phil, I have enjoyed it tremendously. He’s a smart and funny guy who is a pleasure to talk to, yet I felt anxious about the upcoming call.

The call was at 2pm, but it was only noon. I had two full hours to myself. There were video games I could play, movies I could’ve watched, writing I could’ve done, and a multitude of chores I could’ve completed. What did I end up doing until the call?

I sat in front of my computer and did nothing. Not a single thing.

I checked Twitter a few times and the got lost on Reddit. All of a sudden it was 1:57pm, and I had to go to the bathroom. I was late to the call by a few minutes. I was late for a call I had waited in front of my computer for. It’s like being late to a meeting even though you’ve been standing outside the conference room for two hours.

Now, it wasn’t a big deal, but I was curious if this was related to ADHD. I asked Phil if he ever did that. He started laughing and said he had been doing the exact same thing. We were both sitting in front of our computers, just waiting for 2pm to roll around, doing nothing, and being anxious.

Scheduling Silliness

Some scheduled activity is going to happen, and we get anxious about it even though we’re fully prepared. What are we so anxious about? It’s like we’re excited for it to begin, but it’s also paralyzing. Even now, as I type this, I have another similar meeting in a few hours, yet I keep checking the time “just in case.” In case of what!? When I say that to myself now, I immediately feel better at how silly I’m being. It’s such a small departure from the way I thought about upcoming meetings before, yet I feel so much better.

It helps tremendously to be mindful of this ridiculous habit, but that feeling persists. The ability to be conscious about how your brain is functioning is the only sure-fire way of understanding and overcoming these traits, even if the funny feelings they give you never really go away.

Chapter 13 
Stuff I Tried

"I haven't failed—I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."
— Thomas Edison, on inventing the light bulb.

Some Experiments

I wanted to talk a bit about various experiments I tried that didn’t do anything for me. I won’t recommend trying them yourselves, simply because they didn’t work. They were ultimately harmless to me because I stopped, but things like nicotine are not great for your health. That being said, I think it’s important to expose ineffective ideas, so here they are.

Nicotine

When I first started reading about the dopamine deficiency ADHDers have, I was curious about different ways I could “hack” around this problem. If we’re distracted because our work is no longer stimulating, what if we introduced exogenous dopamine during specific times? I was trying to figure out a way to give myself “hits” of dopamine so I could train myself to have a Pavlovian response to productive work.

I decided that nicotine was the closest dopamine hit I could easily give myself, in the form of a small vape. If you don’t know what a vape is, it’s a cigarette alternative that vaporizes nicotine juice instead of burning a cigarette. The health concerns are still under research and it’s probably not good for you, but I decided to try it anyway.

I had a series of blog posts I wanted to finish, but every time I sat down to write them, I would get bored after 30 minutes. I would eventually find myself playing video games, which is not what I wanted. So I decided to try my vaping idea while writing these blog posts. The concept was to vape nicotine at my leisure but only while writing. The nicotine would then act as a dopamine hit. Since I was only vaping while writing, I would trick my brain into becoming addicted to the writing.

Well, I have to say I really enjoyed writing those blog posts. Nicotine seems to be especially tempting for ADHDers, likely because it’s an easy way to get our beloved dopamine. The first few days were exceptional, and I thought I had stumbled onto a revolutionary idea. I had written more than double the amount that I had initially hoped for!

Sadly, the initial excitement soon faded. After only 5 days, I ended my experiment. There are a few problems with this “hack.”

Nicotine made me feel like shit. The first few hits were great, but I started to become jittery and anxious—the opposite of what I wanted.

I started to abuse the blurry lines of my experiment. If I had a writer's block and was staring at my screen, was I allowed to vape? Did research count? What about lengthy YouTube videos on the subject?

I didn’t feel better while writing, just worse when I wasn’t writing.

Rather than quality, I started writing for quantity. More time spent in front of my keyboard meant more time with nicotine. I began to optimize for longer writing sessions rather than higher quality output.

I felt myself becoming addicted to nicotine.

Ultimately, I had more side effects than I wanted, and my original goal of writing quality blog posts on subjects I really enjoyed was not fulfilled. I wrote mediocre blog posts that were too long. I had to spend more time editing and deleting than any additional benefit I received from my failed dopamine proxy. Oh well.

Psilocybin (Magic Mushrooms)

I’ve read many anecdotal reports on the internet which claimed that they solved their ADHD by microdosing psilocybin. Microdosing just means taking a tiny amount of a substance to get a small but noticeable effect. Psilocybin is the naturally occurring psychedelic found in many different types of mushrooms. You probably know them as Magic Mushrooms.

I did some research but mostly found sketchy blogs with overzealous claims about the healing properties of these miraculous mushrooms. At this point, I wasn’t convinced, but I did encounter some more down to Earth claims about easing attention span issues, so I said, “fuck it.” I found a dosing regimen that was well-reviewed, so I tried it.

The recommended dosage for the first day was just 30mg, which is less than 1% of a standard dose of Magic Mushrooms, and I felt no effect. The regimen called for a slow but steady increase over two weeks. For the first week, I felt nothing. Perhaps a little light on my feet, but nothing overwhelmingly positive or negative.

There was one particular morning during the start of the second week, where I did feel a very slight high. The only effect I could notice was that I was more “giggly” than I usually was. No attention span boost. No focus boost. But creativity…

That night I had a hockey game. During the warm-up, I started to feel much more confident in my skating and shooting ability. A few of the tips my teammates had given me began to click. During the game, I felt more creative and gleeful than I had for a long time. I was not impaired in any way. I just felt good and had fun. That was the only day where I could point to a definite boost in any mental powers.

The end of my experiment concluded after the fourth week. The website recommended I stop for a week and evaluate how I felt during the initial 4-week period to see if I needed to increase or decrease my dosage.

My conclusion was that microdosing psilocybin did not affect my focus or attention in any significant way. I did feel far more creative and “giggly” after the second week started, but that soon wore off as well, and I did not see much effect whatsoever once I got used to the substance.

It’s possible that an increased dosage could have given me an increased effect, but I wasn’t convinced enough to give it another shot. I had no adverse side effects, and only a few rare positives. I generally don’t suffer from much anxiety, so perhaps the benefits would be more acute if that was not the case.

Rigid Calendar

One of the sillier strategies I tried was to create a very rigid calendar for myself. I opened up an Excel document and created rows to delineate my day into 30-minute chunks.

I wrote down a label for each chunk. Every minute of the day was accounted for and scheduled. I also gave myself relaxation times. They were precise rest times, with limits.

I used this structure for a few days. By the end of it, I started rebelling against my own system. While the idea was fresh, and my mindset was positive, I did stick to it for a few days. After that, the rigid structure of having to drop everything at a particular scheduled time was starting to drive me crazy.

Don’t try this. All it does is simulate the rigid structure of school, with no freedom to explore new ideas that might take up extra time. Routines and time barriers are practical tools, but doing that for every minute of your day is awful.

Part 3

A Better Mindset

Chapter 14 
Getting Better

Ok we get it. ADHD is hard. Let’s talk about getting better. What does getting better look like to you?

Unfortunately, it’s hard to figure out what an ideal “better” looks like. For a long time, I thought this meant working 100 hours per week like some of the tech CEOs I followed on Twitter. As it turns out, this is complete bullshit. Every single person I’ve seen brag about their “100-hour weeks” was lying. I’m sure there are some rare specimens who do work that much, but I seriously doubt they have time to brag about it if they’re spending 14 hours each day working.

At any rate, some arbitrary number of hours is a terrible goal. The correct goal is to become sustainably productive over long periods of time. It’s not about working 100 hours per week. It’s about consistently working on something for 100+ weeks.

You can’t do that unless you have your mindset and goals aligned in the right direction.

Chapter 15 
Mindset

Your mindset is your own variation of ideas, assumptions, world view, philosophy, and methods. If you assume your problems can never be solved, you have a bad mindset. If you think you are one genius moment away from accomplishing something great and solving all your problems, you have a bad mindset. If you feel you can improve your life by building sustainable habits and working on new skills, you have a good mindset! Let’s build that good mindset.

A Happy Mindset

“The quality of my work depends so much more on my state of mind than the effort I'm putting in.”

— Colin G.

I spoke with someone named Colin. He was diagnosed with ADHD very early and has spent all of his life working with it.

Colin’s insight into mental effort was the sharpest of all my interviews. After spending all his life working on his ADHD, he realized that shepherding his mental effort around tasks was a waste of time. Instead, he spent his energy ensuring that his mindset was in the right place.

The only organizational tool that ever worked for Colin was his bullet journal. Why? Because he really enjoyed using it. Bullet journaling made Colin happy, so he kept doing it. It’s not that he had “work ethic” or “discipline” to continue using his journal. He liked doing it, and it helped him stay organized. The organizational benefit was a side effect of his enjoyment of the task.

What can we learn from Colin?

Colin figured it out impressively early. Everything with ADHD revolves around building a better mindset. If you feel great about the work you’re doing, you’re far less likely to suffer from distractions. Does that mean you should quit everything you dislike doing? No, but it means you should try to find a better alternative when possible. Finding bullet journaling was a happy coincidence for Colin, but it happened because he avoided using tools he disliked. It’s a simple mindset, but it’s also a good mindset. He makes good, non-genius decisions about which tools to help him keep organized. Simple.

Furthermore, Colin’s contentment with his ADHD was reassuring. He has no reservations about his brain circuitry. He knows how his brain works and uses that to his advantage. When something happens to Colin, he chooses to think about strategies that worked for him in the past. If those strategies are not sufficient, he improves them. He does not blame himself or feel shame. He just tries something new. He has a good mindset.

Colin’s mindset can be purified into this simple sentence: “I know what I need to do to be successful, so I do those things as best as I can.”

Try to be like Colin.

Chapter 16 
The Long Game

Avoiding Stupidity

Charlie Munger is an American investor and billionaire. Beyond his massive wealth, he doesn’t seem to be supremely talented in any one field. He is a brilliant thinker and writer, but he didn’t make his money by writing books. He’s not a computer genius, brilliant biochemist, or math wizard. He wasn’t successful as a lawyer, so his friend Warren Buffet told him to become an investor. That seemed to work out for both of them.

How did Charlie do it? Did he rapidly sprint from one genius investment to another? Far from it. Munger spent his career making good, stable, long-term, and boring investments. That’s the one specific place where his genius lies. Charlie Munger avoided trying to be a superstar every day. Instead, he chose to make many good decisions over an extended period of time. When asked about his strategy, he often repeats the same line: 

“It is remarkable how much long-term advantage people like us have gotten by trying to be consistently not stupid, instead of trying to be very intelligent.”

People with ADHD tend to try and leverage their hyperfocus states into genius solutions as a remedy to all their problems. Has this ever worked for you? How many rabbit holes did you go down in a frenzy of excitement, only to come up with an abandoned, unfinished project you’re ashamed of? Did this burst of genius really accomplish anything in the long run?

Just like investing or poker, we get tempted by visions of glory and success if only we could maneuver our way through some high stakes, adrenaline-fueled gambit. Charlie has the right mindset. You don’t need to find a miraculous new method to be able to focus for 18 hours a day. That’s like trying to figure out a way to sprint the full length of a marathon. Instead of overleveraging random bursts of hyperfocus, think about increasing the productivity of your average days.

How do we do this? Start by changing your mindset. Make the conscious decision to be like Charlie and avoid stupidity at all costs. Trying to work 100 hours/week is stupidity. Fix your 40-hour workweek first.

You don’t need to make genius, herculean efforts every day to overcome your perceived failures. Likely, your average days just need to be better. Consciously choosing to have better averages is the basis of a good mindset. If you get hyperfocused, let it flow in a controlled way, but don’t rely on it.

Don’t try to overcome your problems by being very intelligent. Just avoid stupidity.

Play Poker

If you want to be successful at poker, you don’t try to win one gigantic, action-packed hand with all your money on the line. Save that for the movies. Instead, you make rational bets based on how strong you think your cards are. Over time, your good decision making will yield far more winnings than any one-time gamble. Your mindset should be more like a poker player, and your life should be played like a long, successful game of poker. Win small hands often when the odds are in your favor. If you lose because of bad luck, regroup, and try again. You don’t have to go all-in on every hand.

Now apply this to your productivity. If you have an unfocused day, you don’t need to pay back some magical productivity debt. Try to figure out what caused you to be unfocused in the first place. Was it from no fault of your own? Okay, that’s just bad luck. Was it because you have an inconsistent sleep schedule and played video games all night? If that’s the case, then you should avoid stupidity and start sleeping correctly, rather than trying to be a genius and drinking 3 pots of coffee to try and make up for it.

Don’t put all your hopes onto one single action or event. Make sound, conscious plays that yield consistent results. You’ll fail sometimes, don’t sweat it. If you continue doing the right thing, you’ll win in the long run. As Charlie Munger says, don’t try to be very intelligent, just try to avoid stupidity.

Accept the Inconsistency

The thing that finally clicked with me was that inconsistency is the only consistency. The sooner I can accept that, the sooner I can stop getting so upset with myself.

— Dani Donovan, founder of Adhddd.com

A good mindset is accepting that your life will never be a straight line. Even if you had a perfect calendar with every single date, time, deadline, and appointment meticulously organized, your life (or your brain) would inevitably get in the way. Perfection is a fantasy, especially if you have ADHD.

The only way to overcome ADHD is to understand that you can’t overcome ADHD. For a long time, I kept trying so hard to become this disciplined organizational machine. I was trying to be a genius! If I missed even one single day of some routine, it became a tragedy. Even for the one week that I was able to be a robot, it came at the cost of all my creativity and energy. What’s the point of that? I was trying to be a genius rather than making a good-enough plan for my inevitable inconsistency.

Accept that you will never be entirely consistent. For example, after discovering how much meditation benefitted me, I still forget to do it sometimes. Instead of getting upset that I “screwed up” my routine, I forgive myself and just go back to it the next day. Despite being inconsistent on a day-to-day basis, I am consistent in the long run because I consciously avoid trying to be perfect. I don’t worry about meditating today or tomorrow. I worry about continuing the practice over the long-term. I think about being someone who meditates rather than someone who mediates every single day. Sometimes I miss a few days in a row or even an entire week. But it doesn’t matter. The inconsistency is irrelevant because my mindset towards forgetfulness is just to forgive myself and try again.

Do your best and accept that you have faults. Sometimes you will miss days, sometimes you will forget to do what you had planned. But remember, forgetting is fine! ADHD means you have executive dysfunction. Your natural state is to tend to forget things. Just try your best and always continue where you left off. All that matters is to make as many good decisions as you can over long periods of time. This is the mindset that grew both Dani Donovan and Charlie Munger’s success, and it’s the same mindset you should use towards your life.

Make good, long-term decisions, avoid stupidity, and don’t try to be a genius.

Chapter 17 
Mental Effort

Forcing Yourself

One of the phrases I want to expose is something I’ve spent far too much time doing: Forcing Yourself. This is the wrong mindset! If you spend your entire life Forcing Yourself to accomplish tasks, you’ll be miserable.

You might have a different way of putting it, but if you’re like me, then you’ve spent a tremendous amount of your mental energy just trying to get started on tasks. This isn’t “discipline.” This is suffering. Your life isn’t built correctly.

Forcing Yourself means doing something you really don’t want to do. It’s useful in small bursts for specific tasks, but it’s not a sustainable habit. Doing things you don’t necessarily find fun or exciting is just part of life. Forcing Yourself is a very specific tactic that should be reserved for emergencies or daily tedious functions like doing the dishes. If you find yourself Forcing Yourself during your primary productive work, you’re doing something wrong.

Binary and Non-Binary Tasks

First, let’s talk about binary tasks. These tasks are binary in nature. They have a precise start and a measurable end, and they’re usually quite small. Binary tasks are things like doing the dishes or taking out the garbage or replying to an email. They’re unlikable but necessary daily functions. They might even be something bigger, like taking your car for an oil change or spending 20 hours traveling somewhere. Usually, they’re chores and quite dull. These are valid times to Force Yourself.

Binary tasks don’t have a “quality” component. You can’t be excellent at taking out the garbage. Either the trash is overflowing under your kitchen sink, or it’s taken to the dumpster. Taking a flight to New York is either in progress or over. There is no way to be “excellent” at taking a flight. Sure, you might sleep or read a book, but the act of being physically present in an airplane seat for several hours is the same for everyone. Binary tasks don’t care about your feelings, and you can’t be good at them. They just are.

The opposite are non-binary tasks. This means something like writing a book or building an app or learning to play guitar. They take creativity and problem-solving. These are tasks that might have a specific end date, or they might not. If you are building an app, there might be a launch date, but that really isn’t the end of the work. You have to refine it, work on marketing, build more features, fix bugs, etc. And if this app becomes popular, you’ll have the opportunity to turn it into a career. It might not end once a specific goal is reached.

Furthermore, there are better and worse app developers. You might be extremely good at building apps, or maybe your code sucks. Or perhaps your app just isn’t useful. There are many variables involved in this non-binary task.

Similarly, writing a book is non-binary. You may finish a chapter and realize it’s awful. Or perhaps it’s such a good chapter that you need to re-write different parts of the rest of the book to accommodate some ideas. There is excellence involved. You can get better at writing. You can get better at building apps. You can do well in school. There are creative brain cycles involved that affect the quality of your work.

You should not Force Yourself to do non-binary tasks. Your output will suffer because you are suffering. This is different from putting in the effort to get started. A small mental push to pick up your guitar or ready your paintbrush is sometimes required, but it shouldn’t be a herculean effort. If you find yourself Forcing Yourself to do creative tasks, especially during the activity, something needs to change.

Distractions

What happens when you have a difficult time starting and/or completing a non-binary task? There is something misconfigured with the stimulation your brain expects to receive. Do you do the logical thing and think about your situation objectively? No, you do what any well-intentioned ADHDer would do. You blame external distractions.

You turn your phone to airplane mode. You close all your apps. You turn off your web browser. You install a “blocker” that removes your ability to go on distracting websites. You uninstall your video games. You remove all possible “distracting” objects from your environment. Oh, and don’t forget the part where you internalize the idea that your distractions are a moral failure and a “lack of effort.” You don’t have what it takes to write this essay. You’re lazy! You lack work-ethic! And so on.

You sit there trying to Force Yourself to do your work. It might be an essay, it might be some programming task for your job, it might be some spreadsheet. You just can’t do it! Perhaps after a few hours, the stress and anxiety come around to become a pseudo-stimulant, and you produce some garbage. You can feel it in your gut. Another C level essay rather than the A+ you know you could compose if only you weren’t so lazy.

This is the core issue with non-binary tasks. If it were something that was simply “not fun,” like doing laundry, everything makes sense. This task sucks, but it will be done once the clothes are folded. You can measure it. You can physically see how close you are to completion. You don’t even need to be motivated to do laundry. It makes sense that it’s boring. In fact, you might also listen to some music while doing it. You never have to “remove distractions” or delete your video games just to do the laundry. The distractions are clearly not at fault. The monotonous task is.

When you’re doing something where you really do care about excellence, as with any non-binary task, you fall into a cycle of stress and anxiety. Your output might qualify as “finished” at some point, seconds before the due date, but the result is a function of frustration and loathing rather than healthy, diligent excellence.

Furthermore, people tend to think of distractions as an analog of laziness. But are they really? People with ADHD don’t lazily get distracted. We go all in! This is because we get stimulated by this new activity.

If I get distracted, I end up putting 200%
effort into it.
— Shirinnada

My friend Shirinnada explained this well. She works at a tech company, and she realized that many of her distractions help push her work in new, creative directions. When distractions emerge, they often inspire brand new initiatives or novel ideas despite how “unproductive” they seem in the moment. That’s not to say that unproductive distractions don’t exist, but they’re not a sign of laziness either. They’re a sign of the brain craving new stimulation. Since Shirinnada enjoys her work so much, most of her so-called distractions end up becoming valuable insights and assets in her career.

Does this sound “lazy” to you? Her distractions aren’t evil, nor did they ultimately affect her work negatively. They’re just stimulating ideas fighting for her attention. If she always Forced Herself to ignore these distractions, she’d have fewer great ideas and a lot less energy.

Forcing Yourself is a misallocation of effort. It works in infrequent circumstances and should be avoided at all costs. If you are Forcing Yourself repeatedly because of distractions, you should analyze why your current work is not stimulating you. Forcing Yourself away from them is not a good idea. It’s the sign of a poor mindset to believe in this tactic. Distractions are a flag that something in your process isn’t working.

“Work Ethic”

The hardest I ever worked in my life was at a cozy summer internship at a local tech company. They were looking for a summer intern to build a gigantic spreadsheet, and I was luckily hired.

The task was to manually go to 500 different websites and rate them on 40 different technical factors. The spreadsheet had 20,000 empty cells that I needed to fill manually. I had 4 weeks to complete this task, so if you do the math, I had to fill 1,000 cells every single day.

To be quite honest, it was not technically challenging. I had to check various factors of each webpage in a way that let me turn my brain off. I listened to music all day while doing this work. On paper, it sounds pretty easy, right?

It was my first real “office” job, and I brought with me the “look busy, or you’re fired” mindset that many of my high school jobs forced down my throat. I was terrified of getting distracted. I remember looking at my co-worker who dared to check Twitter a few times a day, waiting for him to get reprimanded by his manager. In hindsight, this was silly, but at the time, I was so scared of being unproductive for even a single minute because “they” would notice.

During the first week of working there, my brisk intern enthusiasm helped push me to fill my spreadsheet quota much quicker than I had previously calculated. I pushed more and more and had done a few thousand extra cells by the end of the first week. “This is great!” I thought.

It was during the second week of work that I started to slow down. I was getting unstimulated by the monotonous task I was doing, but I was also terrified of being bored. I spent so much mental energy Forcing Myself to stay focused on this task. I refused to go on any website or check Twitter or look at my phone. I was not going to be “bad” and get distracted.

All of this energy expenditure drained me completely. I started listening to sad music all day. I was on the verge of tears multiple times. I just blamed allergies and kept pushing.

Fortunately, I stuck to my quota and finished the task right on time. I think my manager was impressed. I don’t think they really expected me to finish it within the allotted time. They were kind enough to give me more work with the marketing team, which completely changed my mood. There were many things to do, and I started learning at a fast pace. My sadness was gone, and my productivity skyrocketed, as did my mood.

I still think about that job from time to time, and it makes me sad. Despite this being a “chill” task, I was suffering all day. If that task didn’t have such a definitive end, I don’t know how I would have continued.

This was by far the most “work ethic” I’ve ever put into anything in my life. I spent so much of my mental energy forcing myself to stay “on task” with that spreadsheet. Was it worth it? I did avoid distractions, didn’t I? Is that an ideal that ADHDers should strive for? Was this a good mindset?

It’s clear to me now that this ridiculous meme of “work ethic” is just some bullshit trope created by smug executives and belittling politicians as a way to dismiss inequality as a moral issue. Everyone in that office was distracted from time to time. Even the most neurotypical person on Earth can’t focus for 8 hours straight.

I’m not saying that succumbing to unproductive or unhealthy cravings is better than expending effort. Still, there is clearly a point where spending high amounts of mental energy solely on the act of staying in place is a signal that you’re somewhere you don’t want to be.

I have no negative feelings toward my employer. They had no idea how difficult that task was for me, and they gave me a fantastic first “real job” experience. It was my own mindset that was at fault. Instead of taking breaks or allowing myself a few distractions here and there, I Forced Myself to maintain the illusion of productivity. There is this idea that all productivity comes with the additional cognitive overhead of “work ethic.” That’s not true, and it’s a part of a bad mindset.

Laziness

Lazy: disinclined to activity or exertion
— merriam-webster.com

Are you disinclined to activity? Do you refuse to exert yourself? Didn’t think so. You are not lazy.

People with ADHD do not spend their time avoiding activities. Far from it, our brains are built to jump from idea to idea. Hobby to hobby. Sensation to sensation. Thought to thought. We can’t do “nothing.” It’s also why some of us have a hard time shutting our brains off when it’s time to sleep.

When we have tasks in front of us, it’s not that we want to avoid doing this work. It’s the opposite, we desperately want to start. We want to sit down and focus. We want to get to work and produce excellent results.

So please get it out of your head that you are somehow “lazy.” This word is used by people who are naturally gifted at getting focused and staying on task. They are being intellectually lazy by dismissively labeling someone rather than trying to understand and be empathetic.

People who can get started on things aren’t magic, nor are they “tougher” than you. They aren’t living in some cold, harsh “real world” of brutal discipline and “work ethic.” Yes, they put in mental effort, but this mystical “hard work” isn’t as difficult as people like to say it is.

Think about some time you did excellent work. How did that feel? Was it “tough”? Did you feel the harsh “reality” of “hard work” when you were buried in whatever your chosen rabbit hole was? No, you didn’t. It was easy. You were flowing with good ideas. Your effort seemed as easy as taking a bite out of a sandwich when you’re hungry. Your mindset was in order.

Doing excellent work takes mental effort, but it never feels like that in the moment. It always feels much easier than you think it would. In those motivated moments, did you feel like a superhuman badass exerting robust control over mental energy? Or was this a natural feeling? The way you were supposed to feel?

This is what we need to build towards. It’s not about “harnessing” the “superpower.” It’s about learning how to make everything easier for us. We do this by ensuring we have a healthy and sustainable mindset towards a goal we want to accomplish.

Chapter 18 
Healthy Stuff

Healthy Body, Healthy Mindset

Before we get into building your overall strategy, let’s go over some healthy habits.

These things aren’t meant to fix you. They are essential checklist items to make sure you’re giving yourself every opportunity to have the best possible mindset in the long run. Remember, a healthy mindset is far superior to trying to increase your effort.

Moreover, if you’re someone who has “tried everything,” then this chapter might frustrate you. Similar chapters in other ADHD books or blog posts have frustrated me too. I was once reading a book that recommended using a specific calendar technique to “fix” my organizational issues. I was so fed up with the prescribed calendar “techniques” (that I had already tried a million times) that I threw the book across the room.

I would recommend that you read this entire section and skim past any part you can confidently say you have already checked off. These are not hard daily requirements, just checklist items to complete as often as you can.

None of these are a magic bullet or a quick fix, but they can alleviate some of your symptoms and give you a higher chance of success. And remember, you don’t have to be perfect. Try your best and be mindful of all of these factors. Your vitality is the most essential part of overcoming ADHD. The point isn’t to have the perfect sleep schedule or diet. The point is to understand how each of these factors affects your mood, focus, and productivity.

Get Diagnosed

It’s important to be diagnosed by a professional.

Diagnosis puts your mind at ease, and you stop second-guessing the “validity” of your ADHD. This was especially true with me. When my doctor told me I had ADHD, I knew he had seen hundreds if not thousands of other patients. This wasn’t his naive opinion. This was his medical diagnosis.

A real diagnosis made me feel weird. I was officially not “normal” anymore. In the long run, my escape from “normal” was extremely positive, but I wasn’t fully ready to accept this new identity. It took me some time after I was diagnosed to start contextualizing all of the struggles and anxiety I had built up in my mind over the years. All of the negative energy I had kept balled up inside was finally explained in a context that made sense. You don’t need a professional diagnosis to have ADHD, but it was just another item that put my mind at ease.

Once you are diagnosed, you don’t have to share it with the world. In fact, you don’t have to tell anyone, not even your friends and family. I would recommend that you do, but I just want to reassure you that peace of mind is purely for you.

If you are not in a position to see a doctor or specialist, that’s totally fine. Being diagnosed is not a hard requirement to have “valid” ADHD. Don’t believe anyone who says that.

Medication

Stimulant medication is not for everyone. For some, it gives high anxiety or prevents sleep. I have tried several different medications that gave me these symptoms or worse.

But medication is prescribed for a reason. It works.

ADHD is one of the most medically treatable disorders in psychiatry. The rate of success that you can achieve with medication alone means that most people can be alright despite not changing a single other variable in their life.

There is this omnipresent meme about young boys being “over-prescribed” ADHD medication because they can’t sit still. You might have seen this on various Tough Guy podcasts. While there is some evidence of misdiagnosis and over prescription of stimulant medication for young children, it’s ultimately not informative on a person-to-person basis. There are many valid reasons for needing this medication and I wish I was diagnosed and prescribed medication earlier in life, not later.

As for the positives, I feel I can perform 40% better with medication in mental aspects. I have better memory, better focus, and a better overall mood. It’s unclear if my mood is better because I am less distracted and frustrated, or if the mood boost is simply due to the medication, but hey, it works.

“Have you ever tried doing a task, and it actually feels like the gears in your head are not rotating? When you take medication, you can actually feel it going smoother.”

— Danny, @ABCsofADHD

With medication, my ADHD symptoms do not disappear completely, but they do become more controllable. It still takes effort for me to sit down and get to work, but when I finally do sit down, I feel great.

If you are on the fence about trying medication, I would suggest that you speak with your doctor and see what they think. You can always try the lowest possible dose and work your way up. If it’s unhelpful, just stop. Not a big deal.

So much about ADHD is about trial and error, and medication is one piece of the puzzle that is almost always effective.

Drink Water

Drinking water is good for you. Especially if you take medication. I have no idea if it helps with my symptoms, but it’s easy to do and a good thing to check off every day.

The standard advice is 64 ounces of water per day. To accomplish this, get a 24-ounce glass mason jar and drink 3 full jars every day. I just washed a spaghetti sauce jar, and now it’s my water drinking jar.

Just drink your damn water. It’s so easy.

Sleep

Ah yes, the “just sleep more!” section. This is a touchy subject for a good reason. If you have trouble sleeping and have tried everything, feel free to skip this section. But the advice is common for a reason, sleep is important.

You need to sleep well, as often as possible. You also need to sleep consistently. This means going to bed at the same time every single night and waking up at the same time.

Most adults need at least 7 hours of sleep every night. There is a tiny number of people who require less, but you are unlikely to be a part of this group.

There are no compromises with sleep, not even coffee. And you can’t "catch up" on weekends. You will simply have less awake less time on weekends and suffer horribly on weekdays. I know, I have tried this extensively.

The simple conclusion I have reached is that the more I sleep, the better my focus is. The better my focus is, the better my mood becomes. The better my mood, the more productive I am. And finally, if I am productive throughout the entire day, I can easily fall asleep right on schedule. It all fits together into a delicate cycle.

How do you fix your sleep schedule?

There are a million articles, videos, podcasts, and books about this topic. I would recommend “Why We Sleep” by Matthew Walker, but there are other resources out there as well. They will all recommend that you have a consistent sleep schedule of 7+ hours.

My method is as follows:

Set a bedtime that works around your school or work hours and follow it every single day. I personally go to sleep at 11pm and wake up at 7:30am.

Sometimes I wake up before my alarm goes off, sometimes I sleep right until 7:30am. I give myself some buffer time to help in case I can’t fall asleep.

If you always wake up after 6 hours and can't sleep anymore, then perhaps 6 is the optimal number for you. But to start, try and get at least 7 hours.

If you are a night owl, then simply go to bed later and wake up later. There is nothing wrong with that as long as you consistently hit 7+ hours.

If you have an important event to go to, then just go. Feel free to sleep in. A fun party with your friends or a late-night movie once in a while are perfectly legitimate events to mark as important. Life isn't worth living without fun. Just accept that your sleep will suffer for that particular night, and just go back to your routine the following night. Your average sleep cycle is more important that one bad day.

Finally, there are probably hundreds of different sleep apps and alarm clocks in the App Store. Some of them claim to optimize your REM cycles or some other magic. These are small optimizations. The most crucial factor is the length of time you allow your brain to rest.

What if you do everything right, but still can’t sleep?

As I said, there are many people with ADHD who do everything in their power to sleep but just can’t. If you are one of those people, then I am afraid you will have to speak with a professional. There’s no way around that. It’s incredibly frustrating, but sleep is one of the most critical habits we can do to keep our brains healthy and happy.

Exercise

You know that asshole who you see out your window every single morning, doing their morning jog or bike ride? They feel great, both mentally and physically. Be that asshole.

There are hundreds of research papers and studies that all conclude that regular exercise increases mood and brain function. This is especially true if you have ADHD. Exercise increases dopamine. ADHD is a dopamine disorder. Do the math.

What exactly does “regular exercise” mean?

I spent many hours trying to decipher what exactly the requirements are. What is an optimal weekly “dose” of exercise? The general consensus seems to recommend a minimum of three, 45-minute workouts each week.

You don’t have to run marathons or sprint up hills. Evidence suggests that lower intensity exercise, such as yoga or taking long walks, can also improve brain function. There is no concrete best exercise, but you need to move your body to improve your brain.

How can you start an exercise routine?

If you already exercise enough, then I can assume you already found something you enjoy doing, and you can skip this part and smugly pat yourself on the back.

If you are an able-bodied person who does not exercise regularly, then you should start. It will help you focus and make you feel good. And as with anything, you must work within the parameters of your ADHD brain. If you don’t enjoy it, you won’t do it.

How do you find a form of exercise you enjoy doing?

Like everything with ADHD, you need to try as many forms of exercise as possible until you find something you look forward to doing.

Here’s what I did:

First, I tried jogging. But I hated it. Something about it just bores the hell out of me. I think it’s a lack of stimulation. You’re just out of breath with nothing to show for it. You arrive at some generic local destination and then turn around. Or worse, you’re on a treadmill, and your destination is some timer. So I knew that jogging or cycling was not for me.

Then I tried sprinting at the track close to my house. This was following something called “high-intensity interval training.” Basically, sprint for 10 seconds and walk for 50 seconds. Rinse and repeat. That was slightly less boring, but still not something I looked forward to. I felt the omnipresent dread when thinking about it. So I stopped.

Instead, I realized I needed something even more stimulating. I always enjoyed sports as a kid, so I joined my friends’ ice hockey team. Luckily, hockey was immediately much more fun. I love ice hockey. I look forward to it. I miss it. Unfortunately, we only have one game every week, so I needed two more days of exercise. Rather than adding something different, I looked up ice hockey-related exercises I could do at the gym, and I started doing those. Now I get to work on ice hockey 3+ times every week, even though they contain aspects of the “boring” cardio I was doing in the past. The context matters, as always.

Find something that you honestly look forward to. Here are some other examples you can try that all increase brain function when done regularly:

Yoga

High-Intensity Interval Training (HIIT)

Jogging

Cycling

Swimming

Sports

Martial arts

Gymnastics

Long walks on the beach

You get the idea. Find something you like to do and do it three times a week. The point is to get your body moving, not win an Olympic medal.

Diet

Everyone has different food preferences, allergies, and other requirements. This is a controversial topic concerning ADHD. Many dozens of articles have been written with competing conclusions about which diets might help.

Ultimately you just need to understand that diet is a massive part of your life, and you need to figure out what works best for you. I recommend taking a food allergy test, just to make sure you’re not making yourself sick every day.

I am not a diet professional, I can’t give you diet advice. If you would describe your diet as “shit” or “garbage,” you should fix it. I don’t know how you should fix it, but make it a priority. Diet won’t fix your ADHD issues, but it will give you the opportunity to put your best foot forward every single day.

Chapter 19 
Tacit Knowledge

Why Can’t You Just Tell Me What to Do?

Imagine someone walks up to you on the street with a briefcase full of cash and a brand-new bicycle. The cash-wielding stranger promises to give you all the money if you can teach them to ride the bicycle. The caveat is that you can only use words. Could you do it? What if you could draw diagrams and even show them a video? What if you took them to a cycling coach? Could the coach teach them to ride a bike without them physically getting on one?

You might draw sophisticated diagrams and show them the perfect video you found online. But you know in your gut this won’t work. Nobody can learn to ride a bike without actually sitting on the damn thing.

The inevitable conclusion is the student will get on the bicycle and immediately fall over—no cash for you.

Now let’s reverse the situation. You are supposed to perfectly learn how to ride the bicycle without actually riding one. Do you think you could do it? Could anyone? Again, the obvious answer is no.

Nobody would be successful in either of these experiments. There is an indescribable “feeling” of riding a bicycle that you can only learn from trying and failing many times.

The technique of riding a bicycle is different for everyone. Each person has different limb lengths, body weights, centers of gravity, levels of athleticism, and so on. There is no universal brain signal that ensures perfect cycling. We are too diverse, too complicated, and our brains are all unique.

No reasonable person would ever blame the bicycling student. Of course, they can’t ride the bike, they’re getting verbal instructions! You have to get on the damn thing and practice riding, everyone knows that!

People with ADHD are the bicycle student, and everyone else is shouting instructions from the sidelines. Our friends, family, teachers, and peers are all trying their best to tell us how to balance and avoid falling over, but we just can’t put their instructions to good use.

So we end up losing balance and falling over. Again and again and again. Some of us fall harder than others. Some of us catch ourselves before we scrape our elbows. Some of us break a wrist or an ankle. Despite falling over, we persist. We try new instructions or techniques. We try to use diagrams, we watch videos, we talk to our parents, we speak to peers.

The people around us make it seem so easy!

“Just sit down and focus!”

“Just drink some more coffee, it works for me!”

“You need some sleep. A good night’s sleep always gets me back on track.”

“Just sit on the damn bike and peddle for God’s sake!”

We try our best. It doesn’t work. The Bad Feeling is back!

Just like you shouldn’t blame the student for falling over, you shouldn’t blame yourself for not being able to focus. Remember, it’s silly to blame the student! They’re a student. By definition, they’re still learning!

Now, I don’t think someone with ADHD can ever be perfectly balanced. You will never win the Olympic gold of concentration. But that doesn’t mean we can’t practice riding the damn bike until we stop falling over.

Tacit Knowledge

Riding a bicycle is an example of tacit knowledge.

It is simply not possible to explain how to ride a bicycle to someone using only words. You can tell them what to do, but they won’t understand until they try.

Tacit knowledge is how experts just “know” how to perform in certain situations.

Tacit knowledge is how Michael Jordan knows when to shoot instead of pass. He might be able to communicate to you a series of steps and conditions that led up to a particular situation, but his explanations would not magically transfer his knowledge of basketball to you. He has tacit knowledge of basketball.

Tacit knowledge is the “feeling” that artists, athletes, and other professionals have about their craft. This is proficiency. Tacit knowledge is when an expert graphic designer creates a beautiful design with seemingly low effort. It’s the ability of a computer programmer to write efficient code without having to triple-check their plan beforehand. Tacit knowledge is how you can type on your keyboard without looking.

Tacit knowledge is how veteran ADHDers can overcome their symptoms and thrive despite having the brain circuitry that makes it hard for them to focus.

Tacit knowledge is something you can acquire in only one way: by doing.

You Must Acquire Tacit Knowledge

Until now, I talked about recognizing the hard parts of ADHD, as well as the new mindset you must build. The third piece of the puzzle is to actually build a strategy with this new mindset. Your new strategy requires practice and patience. Your new strategy will manifest itself over time as tacit knowledge about how your brain works.

From the very beginning, I promised this book would help you overcome the challenges associated with your ADHD diagnosis, and this is the start.

You aren’t broken. You aren’t an idiot. You aren’t lazy, stupid, useless, dumb, “retarded”, slow, or low-grade. You’re not a failure.

You are simply the student who is trying to ride the bicycle. Many people around you are telling you exactly how they do it, but every time you try, it doesn’t seem to work.

You fall over. You scrape your shin. Once in a while, there is a large external force (usually a deadline) that pushes you forwards fast enough that you can stay balanced for a little while, but eventually, you fall over and crash. Let’s avoid crashing.

Building your strategy is like riding this bike. You will stumble, it might feel awkward, and it’s not very fun at the start. But given enough time and practice, you can thrive with your strategy just like you thrive at riding a bike.

Part 4

Build Your Strategy

Chapter 20 
Components of a Strategy

There are five components you must work on. These are skills. You need to practice them and gain tacit knowledge. The more you practice, the better you can overcome your problems.

The purpose of this strategy is not to be perfect, nor is it to summon hyperfocus on command. The goal of the strategy is that you won’t have to. You will start to create a sustainable lifestyle where you can work with positive, happy productivity on the projects you want.

Within the past few years, I interviewed dozens of people. At first, I wanted to know how they cope with ADHD, but interview after interview, I became increasingly reassured I could do far more than just cope. I could thrive, just like them.

Every single person I spoke to had come to the same patterns. They all spent time thinking and working through the same five different skills:

Mindfulness

Planning

Infrastructure

Motivation

Distractions

The foundation of all aspects of your strategy is mindfulness, followed by learning to plan, building a better infrastructure, harnessing your motivation, and finally eliminating distractions. As you practice, you will gain the tacit knowledge required to wield them effortlessly.

I will go into detail about each category, but merely reading about them is more than enough to get started. You don’t need a pencil and a notebook, and you don’t need to create some gigantic flowchart and do a bunch of homework. There is no order of operations here. Just try to understand each category and notice which specific aspects you need to improve on.

Once you understand each category, you can get to work on tailoring them to your own life.

Chapter 21 
Skill #1: Mindfulness

What is Mindfulness?

Mindfulness is the practice of becoming aware of your present experience without judgment. The goal is to be a neutral witness to reality, rather than a biased reactionary. Meditation is the typical way people can practice mindfulness, but it’s not the only way.

In the context of ADHD, mindfulness means the awareness of when you are suffering from a symptom of ADHD, so you can steer yourself in a better direction. It’s that simple.

Hyperfocus, calendar anxiety, brain fog, feeling unfocused, or even the inability to sleep are all observable patterns caused by ADHD.  Mindfulness is merely observing, understanding, and accepting them in real-time.

Mindfulness also means becoming aware of longer-term symptoms, such as persistent memory issues. So often, we forget about appointments, miss dates, or just forget new habits we want to form. We can get better. Mindfulness is the way we can overcome and correct ourselves without harsh self-shaming or judgment.

Mindfulness is Objectivity

If you are conscious of a mental obstacle, you can act upon it. Objectivity means control. If you can be objective about yourself in real time, it means you can control and change your behavior for the better. It also means you’ll be less frustrated, since you’ll be analyzing yourself in real time instead of reacting emotionally to everything you do. The remedies to ADHD symptoms are far more manageable once you stop reacting emotionally to them.

Objectivity means you can catch yourself before you waste your precious mental energy spinning your tires. If you find yourself becoming distracted or anxious, you can direct your attention to a resolution before the negativity manifests itself. You waste less mental energy and time.

Mindfulness is Judgment Free

Once you notice you’re unfocused or distracted, do you continue the wrath your childhood authority figures set upon you? You might at first. I did.

The more empathetic judgment to make is to simply not make a judgment. It’s possible to exist in a distracted state without feeling self-loathing or frustration. The symptoms are not your fault. There is nothing logical about beating yourself up over something your brain does without your consent.

If you’re judgment-free, you can start becoming more professional about it too. Think about it like a road trip. If you take the wrong turn on the highway, is it useful to become upset? In this instance, it’s more valuable and professional to just act like your navigation app.

You know when you take a wrong turn, and the robot lady takes a few seconds to calculate a new route? Be that soothing robotic voice for yourself. Be aware that you took the wrong turn and find the correct path so you can get back on track. That’s all it has to be. You don’t need to get frustrated. You fixed your wrong turn by merely noticing it. You win.

Mindfulness for Better Solutions

Mindfulness creates awareness. Awareness uncovers better solutions.

Athletes don’t become professionals by randomly playing their sport and hoping their effort is worth it. They analyze what they’re good at and what they need to improve on. They are mindful. They practice with purpose.

Understanding the causes and effects of what makes you distracted or unfocused is impossible unless you can think clearly and without judgment in real-time.

Once you understand the causes and effects of your undesirable distractions, you can take the mindset of a professional athlete who specifically targets their deficiencies. You can efficiently and confidently spend your mental energy on fixing your weaknesses once you find them.

How To Become Mindful

There are three primary ways you can become more mindful.

1.) Start Meditating

Yes, the same meditation you’ve been recommended thousands of times over by internet gurus and smiling Instagram influencers alike. I tried to build a meditation habit dozens of times. Eventually, it worked. It turns out all my so-called failed attempts at meditation were, in fact, me successfully meditating.

What is meditation supposed to do anyway? It’s simple. If you meditate, you will build awareness of your own consciousness. When thoughts arise, you can look at them more objectively rather than succumbing to whatever feelings they uncover.

Meditation doesn’t need to be religious or spiritual. It’s an exercise for the brain. Squats make your legs stronger, meditation makes your brain stronger. A strong brain gives you the ability to observe yourself in real-time. This is scientifically proven, by the way.

Meditation takes practice. When you meditate, the point is to become more objective and aware of present reality. That’s the guiding principle. But the entire point of meditation is not to reach perfection. It’s actually to fail. When you sit there with your eyes closed, trying to observe your breath, your mind will inevitably wander. When this happens, you aren’t failing. Quite the opposite, you’re winning. The conscious realization that your mind has wandered, and the subsequent effort to bring yourself back to awareness, is the entire point of meditation. Every single time you come back from being lost in thought, you are becoming more mindful. Noticing and correcting “failure” is the entire point of the exercise. These are push-ups for your brain.

Could you see how this works with ADHD as well? If you become more mindful of your own wandering mind, you achieve victory by merely realizing it and bringing yourself back to focus without any judgment. This is the foundation of your strategy.

And yes, it works. The overwhelming majority of meditation practitioners see positive results. Many neurological studies show clear increases in grey matter density in the brains of those who meditate regularly. As I said, it’s exercise.

Want to start? Download whatever free meditation app you want. Or go on YouTube. Or Google it. Or read a meditation book. Meditation is free and requires no equipment.

I try to meditate for 15 minutes every day. Even though I miss some days, I have found tremendous benefits over time. If you fail, just try again. If you miss a week, that’s fine. Just start again. The long-term practice of realizing you forgot to meditate also builds mindfulness. Meditation doesn’t evaporate if you miss a few days.

Just do it. I know you’ve probably heard about meditation a million times, but 500 million people practice it for a reason. Give it the good old ADHD try. It’s completely free and will build you a stronger brain.

2.) Research

“I’ve researched and dealt with all of my ADHD symptoms for so long that I have a hard time relating to newly diagnosed ADHDers.”

— Danny, @ABCsofADHD

My friend Danny has spent many years creating content in the ADHD community. He’s probably answered thousands of ADHD questions at this point. So why does he have a hard time relating to newly diagnosed ADHDers?

Danny has an encyclopedic knowledge of many aspects of this disorder. He’s talked about dozens of different commonalities ADHDers have, and he had an equally long list of performance-enhancing strategies to overcome them. The knowledge he gained from diligent research and discovery granted him the powerful ability to be mindful of how his own brain works. He has tacit knowledge of which direction his mind is going in any given moment.

If you meditate regularly, you will start to become proficient at maintaining concentration and mindfulness over your thoughts. As you notice your own thoughts and patterns, you will eventually need more context.

You will notice that distractions and brain fog are just some of the quirks of your brain, but you can further enhance your mindfulness just like Danny has. Our condition manifests itself in many ways, and not everyone has the same symptoms. It’s essential to learn more about ADHD so you can relate to the symptoms you have and don’t have. Knowing which patterns your brain doesn’t have is just as important as knowing what patterns it does.

At the start of this book, I mentioned that you must work on a new project, a project to understand your ADHD compassionately and neutrally. All forms of research are a vital part of this understanding.

Most people (including myself) who were diagnosed with ADHD stop learning once they receive medication. Your doctor gives you some “tips and tricks” and you’re sent along with a shiny new prescription. Most people leave it at that. It took me years before I even watched one YouTube video, despite suffering from ADHD symptoms every single day.

You must do further research. Reading this book counts as research. Watching a YouTube video on ADHD (there are many excellent ones) counts as research. Reading scholarly articles about dopamine receptors in your brain counts as research. Finding memes on Twitter about ADHD counts as research. Speaking to friends, family members, support groups, and online communities all counts. Any new information you acquire builds up your personal research project.

The more I read and learned about other people’s ADHD, the more I understood my own. Even when I read something totally contradictory to my experience, I still found it educating and helpful, simply to contrast it with my own.

3.) Spaced Repetition

But what if you forget to do all this stuff?

The final piece of mindfulness is managing your memory. Our executive dysfunction comes with the side effect of not being able to remember things. This isn’t some silly inability to remember a phone number or someone’s name. This is a deeper macroscopic memory issue.

Think about the last time you became motivated to change something in your life or to create some habits. “I will really stick to it this time.” Maybe it was a new gym routine or a new organizational habit. Perhaps it was bullet journaling or even meditation! The first week you did this routine, you did great, right? Your enthusiasm, combined with the vision of glamorous long-term results, made you feel on top of the world. But that routine eventually faded away, didn’t it?

Was it the difficulty of the new routine that caused you to fail? Did you purposely decide to stop this new routine? Was it a conscious decision, based on logic and reasoning, with full agreement from all sides of your brain? Or was it hard to remember why you stopped? Maybe you do remember. Perhaps you missed a day, or something came up, and you “lost your streak.” Were you really so demotivated from a single missed day that it all collapsed?

Did you ever analyze what happened? Or did you come to some snap judgment using the internalized negative language?

“I can’t stick to my commitments.”

“I’m not someone who can complete things.”

“I always fall off the train because I have motivation problems.”

“I guess I just never really enjoyed doing __________.”

Maybe you did try something that you ultimately didn’t like. That’s a legitimate reason to quit a new routine or plan. But I can only remember a handful of times that I’ve made confident, conscious quitting decisions like this (and I’ve never regretted them). Despite the multitude of books I read and courses I took on habit formation, I’ve failed to stick with hundreds of new habits. It’s not because I didn’t want to, it’s because I kept forgetting them.

You’re not lazy. You forgot! Executive dysfunction means you forget things. The stimulation of the novel initiative wore off, and your brain decided it wasn’t significant enough to remember.

How do you remember something like this long term? You need to keep reminding yourself. How do you remember to remind yourself? You’re not going to like this, but it’s the gold standard for a reason: flashcards. Okay, what I really mean is spaced repetition. I promised you that I wouldn’t prescribe organizational tools, yet here we are.

Try this thought experiment. Think about a new friend or co-worker you made within the past few years. How do you remember their name? Is it because you remembered the first time you learned it? Or is it because you’ve seen, heard, and used their name in many different ways during social functions over an extended period of time? Let me ask you another question, did you correctly remember their name the second time you saw them? Or did you “kind of remember” a few more times before it was more permanently etched into your brain? If this is the case, you used spaced repetition to remember. It’s how you memorize.  Spaced repetition is how you can effectively remember anything, and it’s the opposite of cramming. Spaced repetition is just repeating information over a space of time.

If we agree that remembering someone’s name correctly after meeting them just once is difficult, can we also agree that remembering to start a new habit after only thinking about it just once is equally challenging?

Why would remembering your new plans, habits, or routines be any different? “Learn once, remember forever” doesn’t work for ADHDers.

The concept of spaced repetition is straightforward: if you study something in small bits, kind-of often, you will commit it to long term memory. There are a few different types of spaced repetition systems, but they all have the same underlying principle, and all work with flashcards. What is a flashcard? It’s just a card with a question and a hidden answer. When you study them, you look at the question and try to remember the answer. Spaced repetition is just a way to use these cards in a specific order, with time intervals calculated using an algorithm based on your performance. If you find a card challenging to remember, you study it again sometime soon. If a card is easy to remember, the algorithm doesn’t bring it up again until much later.

Implementation is straightforward: use an app. There are hundreds of spaced repetition apps. They all work in the same way and reduce the cognitive overhead of having to create and manage physical flashcards. Other than my calendar app, my spaced repetition app is the only “organizational” app I have ever found useful.

What do you put into your spaced repetition app? Anything you want to do long term. Generally, spaced repetition is used by students trying to memorize facts, but I’ve found it incredibly useful as an aid to help with my ADHD memory issues.

Every time you want to do something new, put the entire plan into a flashcard. Do you want to meditate every morning at 9am? Create a flashcard. Trying to eat a specific number of calories per day? Create a flashcard. Attempting to create a video game as a side project? Create a flashcard. Want to avoid hyperfocusing for 10 hours a day? Create a damn flashcard.

Here are some examples of extremely basic cards:

Q: What do I do every morning at 9am
A: Meditate

Q: How many calories do I eat every day?
A: 2500

Q: What should I do on Saturday evenings?
A: Work on my video game.

Q: What should if I feel hyperfocused?
A: Set a time limit, drink lots of water, eat healthy meals.

Every time you study your cards, you will etch these new initiatives into your mind. It’s a simple concept but incredibly powerful.

Now, if you start to hate your new hobbies or habits despite correctly remembering them, then you can make the conscious decision to quit. But that’s a good thing! Quitting is an act of purpose. It means you are in control. You aren’t quitting by accident because you forgot. You are making mindful decisions about your life based on what works for you.

Practical Implementation

Meditation: download some meditation app and use it every day. If you miss a day, just try again. Don’t do more than 15 minutes until you’re more comfortable. If you really can’t meditate and have a horrible time sitting still, that’s fine. Meditation should be helpful, not painful. If it doesn’t work for you, try to figure out some other practice that you enjoy doing.

Research: Read, watch, and listen to at least one new piece of ADHD information every week. If you’re active on some ADHD website, forum, or other community, you’re already doing this. If you write some of these down, even better, but don’t worry about taking notes if that’s not your style.

Spaced Repetition: Remove all notifications from your smartphone except for texts, phone calls, and the app of your choice. If your app is good, it should notify you when it’s time to study. You can also open it up every time you are on the bus, in the bathroom (come on, we all do this), or waiting in some way. I personally like Anki because it has more robust features than other apps. It’s free on all platforms except for iOS. I’m sure you can find other apps that are free on iOS if that’s a sticking point, just make sure they automatically deal with time intervals and notifications for when it’s time to study.

Chapter 22 
Skill #2: Planning

Planning With ADHD

If you have no plan, your projects will likely start off strong and fizzle out. A lot of planning with ADHD is actually telling yourself to do less, not more.

Planning requires you to be mindful first. When you become more conscious of how your brain works, you can start creating better plans around both your limitations and talents. I know it’s frustrating to hear the word “planning” since this usually brings back uncomfortable memories of the dozens of apps, calendars, checklists, notebooks, and other organizational tools you’ve abandoned. But a lot of planning is just about having rules in place for when certain things happen to you. That’s all it is. You don’t need a complicated flow chart or a million-item long checklist to have a useful plan.

A plan can be just a simple paragraph:

“I’ll draw one sketch every day for a month. If I miss a day, I’ll try again the next day. If I get hyperfocused with a drawing, I’ll set a time limit for myself for when to stop. If I feel sucked in towards another project, I will re-evaluate whether or not I want to keep drawing.”

Learning to Plan

One of the best interviews I had was with a circus artist named Avalon Woodard. When she graduated from college, she lost the rigidity of the predefined blocks of time that made up her class schedule. Much of her productive time had been scheduled for her in college until, suddenly, it wasn’t.

As with many ADHDers, Avalon’s relationship with time lost cohesion. Rather than feeling free from the grasp of college responsibilities, she felt lost. She had to learn how to plan. Her path was not straightforward, and yours won’t be either. For Avalon, it took joining a circus during a global pandemic to finally learn to plan. Her story is enlightening:

I always enjoyed various circus-related activities. I remember learning to juggle as a kid, and it made me very happy. I spent an entire summer hyperfocusing on juggling! During college, I went to the renaissance fair, and impulse bought a diabolo toy. It’s like two sticks with a string between them, and a weird cylinder in the middle. It looks really cool when you do tricks with it—another thing for me to hyperfocus on. See a trend?

Anyway, one evening I met a new friend. It was 10pm, and she says, “want to learn to eat fire?” Obviously, I said yes. Her basement was full of circus equipment. I fell in love with all of it. Also, I learned how to eat fire.

One day I decided to uproot my entire life and move to Dallas. Once there, I started going to the Circus Freaks clown gym at the mall. I liked it so much I kept showing up. I started volunteering in an official capacity and eventually got hired full time as a tech. I worked my way up to being a juggler. I’m now a clown, stilt walker, and do some acrobatics too.

It was great, but then the pandemic hit. I had to start working from home.

We started doing live streams and different exercises on a rigid schedule, but most of my days were flexible, and I had to finally learn to plan for myself.

When I first started working from home, my time management was awful. Tasks that took me 5 minutes would cause me 10 hours of worry. Why didn’t I just get them done? I was terrible at planning.

What worked for me was to start following my natural rhythm. I choose two things to focus on each day: one when I wake up, and one right after lunch. It’s totally different than everything I read about planning, but it works for me. Once I’m done those tasks, I intentionally give myself permission to do anything I want!

If for some reason, I miss a task, I don’t worry about it too much. If I was working the entire time I wanted to, then that’s good enough for me. I just try and fit that missed task somewhere in the rest of the week.

My plan is not going to be the same forever, and that’s okay. Once I internalized the idea that my process is mine, I freed myself to do what works for me.

What’s the takeaway from Avalon’s story? She practiced the art of planning and accepted that her plans will never be straightforward. What works for her is the deep insight she has over how her mind operates. It informs the way she can build her plans around her own rhythms. She uses a few simple rules to map out her day, and fully trusts that she’s giving it her best effort.

Don’t Plan for Hyperfocus

If you create a checklist of tasks to accomplish, and you start to hyperfocus, who gets the credit once every item is complete? Your hyperfocus, or your checklist?

Your checklist now looks brilliant. So you try it again, only this time you add more items, thinking you can accomplish even more tomorrow. What happens when you have a bad day? You abandon the checklist. It’s the checklist’s fault, after all.

When we accomplish a great deal of great work in a short time, we fail to realize that this was an unpredictable boost in productivity. You never planned for hyperfocus. It just happened by itself. But now you’ve overleveraged the productivity of that one specific moment into an enthusiastic new outlook. You’re doing this the wrong way.

Hyperfocus is a sprint. It’s a short burst of speed that is impossible to maintain over long distances. Don’t rely on hyperfocus. If it happens, great! But don’t plan for it. If it were possible to continue a long period of hyperfocus to finish a giant project, you would have already done so.

Long term thinking requires consistent, sustainable effort. It’s tantalizing to imagine a lifestyle where you could hyperfocus every day, but you can’t. Let me repeat it again: hyperfocus is not sustainable. Do not try to imagine yourself sprinting every day. You just can’t.

Plan For Average Instead

If you still think you just need to hyperfocus to accomplish your goals, let me ask you this. Are you planning ahead? Are you thinking about creating a sustainable plan or set of rules to bridge the gaps between your bursts of hyperfocus? Or are you planning behind?

Planning behind means you look backward and build a fantasy of what your productivity could be if you could sprint everywhere at all times. It’s illogical. Stop. Instead of wasting your time living in a fantasy, start planning ahead.

When you create a plan, set yourself up so that you can easily succeed on any given day. If you happen to get hyperfocus, great! Allow it to provide you with a boost in productivity. But if you want to continue working at an average pace the next day, stop your hyperfocus before you get burned out. If you feel like you can hyperfocus for 10 hours, stop at 6. Those extra hours will burn you out and reduce your ability to work the next day.

A Plan Is More Than Just a Deadline

Think about some work that needs to be completed. Let’s call it The Work. It might be an essay, an exam to study for, a spreadsheet for work, or some feature of an app that needs to be designed and built. The Work has a deadline. Let’s say it’s 2 weeks away, and you don’t particularly love doing it.

If I asked you to “create an action plan,” what would you do? You would probably open up your most recently abandoned calendar (or start a brand new one) and put in the deadline. Or maybe this time, it’s a checklist or a reminder app. When you place a deadline in your calendar, does that do anything? All you’ve done is create a new anxiety about something in the future, but nothing else has actually happened. Congrats, you’re anxious, and you still don’t have a plan.

This isn’t to chastise the practice of using a calendar, it’s just that you’re using your fresh calendar date as the plan itself.

If you don’t know what your daily effort is going to be spent on, you’re going to flail around at random. A deadline alone is not a plan.

How To Fill In Your Plan

Making a plan is far different than you think it is. Let’s explain it by looking at how people go to the gym.

Most people show up at the gym and lift weights based on what “day” it is. They likely have a few of these “days” in mind. Usually, it’s something like “chest day, leg day, back day, arms day.” They alternate around these “days” and “try to hit the gym” as often as possible.

This is the bare minimum of a plan. They likely have a pool of exercises in mind that belong to each of these “days.” These gym-goers just do whatever exercises they feel like, as long as they belong to the appropriate pool for that “day.” There is also no numerical component of this plan. There is no specific number of reps or sets to be performed. There is also no calculation involved in terms of how much weight this person should be lifting. At best, it’s random. At worst, it’s “to failure,” which means this person is totally exhausting their muscles every single time they exercise. Exercising to failure every work-out is not a good way to build long term progress. You burn out. The same is true for working on projects.

Sure, eventually, this person will gain muscle. But how much? Well, if someone has a random plan, their gains will also be mostly random. Ultimately, they will trend in the right direction as they’re going in some direction with some consistency. This is the same phenomenon as ADHDers who try really hard and eventually do make some progress. But this progress isn’t just the result of so called “hard work”, it’s the result of going mostly in the right direction. This is the basis of the impostor syndrome we feel. Somehow, we showed up and put in effort enough times that we made something. Somehow, our constant exhaustion and burn-out eventually ended up moving us in the right direction. We’re “successful” but subsequently feel like shit when our peers congratulate us. Just like the random gym-goer, we don’t really understand why we accomplished what we did. It just…kind of happened.

The Folly of Trying Hard (Sustainable Plans Should be Easy to Follow)

When I first started going to the gym, I was the random plan guy with those “days.” My progress was mediocre and erratic, but I showed up enough times that I made some progress. Mostly I just wanted to hang out with my friends.

Over time I realized my random workouts were inefficient, so I looked for a new plan. I found one. It told me exactly how much to lift every single day. The program was very simple, but it provided me a clear, linear progression to follow. To keep it simple, let’s just look at squats.

The program provided a way to calculate your “one rep max” for squats. This number goes into some calculation, which spits out a starting weight with which to begin the program. The working weight it gave me for squats was shockingly low.

If I could squat a maximum of 200lbs, why did the program tell me to start all the way back at 100lbs? Was this calculation wrong? I did what every naïve idiot does when faced with something that bruises their ego, I tried harder rather than following the simple instructions.

I decided that at age 17, I was much smarter than the legendary powerlifting coach who had created this workout plan. Instead of starting down at 100lbs like the plan instructed, I simply refused to lower the weight.

The plan told me to add 5lbs to my squat every gym day. The first few squat sessions were successful but very difficult. Remember, I was using my maximum squat weight of 200lbs instead of lowering it like the program told me to. I came to the conclusion that my struggles were actually a function of effort, and that I just needed to try harder.

After only two weeks, I completely stalled. I had to reduce the weight I was squatting because I was simply exhausted. Rather than making progress, I had immediately hit a wall because I put too much weight on the bar. Why? Because I didn’t accept that a sustainable plan means you don’t have to Force Yourself every single time.

Progress is not meant to be a struggle! Uncomfortable? Yes. Awkward? Possibly. But physically or mentally intense every single day? No. Progress is meant to be sustainable. Sustainable means it might feel easy some days, but it should very rarely feel intensely difficult. ADHD gives us certain superhuman moments where we can hyperfocus for hours. We wrongly assume that this is a universally comfortable working pace because that one particular day or weekend felt good, but that’s our maximum effort! The only time a powerlifter ever uses maximum weight is at a powerlifting competition one or two times per year. Just because you can do your maximum squat once doesn’t mean you should try to do it every single workout. The same goes for productivity. 100 days of average progress is lightyears ahead of 2 frantic weekends of hyperfocus followed by burn-out.

You know what I should have done? Followed the damn plan. If I had followed it properly, I would have gone to the gym, had an easy time for most of my workouts, and enjoyed a healthy progression towards my goal. I would have blown by my original 200lbs maximum squat with no issues. Instead, I convinced myself that progress was a function of effort instead of a function of being smart and sticking to a good plan. My silly, immature ego got in the way, and I tried way too hard instead of just following the damn program.

Sustainable feels easy for us because we’ve been smashing our heads against our desks for decades. Easy feels wrong because we’re so used to everything being so painful. But it’s not meant to be painful, it’s meant to be sustainable.

Building Good Plans

Building a mediocre plan is easy. Building a good plan takes effort. Building an excellent plan requires trial, error, wisdom, and tacit knowledge. Over time, you will learn what works for you, just like Avalon did with her few simple rules. Only after a lot of trial and error will you be able to create excellent plans for yourself. But let’s stick with good for now.

Good plans have four pieces:

Measurable Goals

Measurable Actions

A Failure Mechanism

Consistency

Plan Components

1.) Measurable Goals

You might have heard of “SMART” goals. Rather than vomiting a generic blog post into this section, let’s keep it simple.

Your goal needs to be measurable and needs a deadline.

“I will to <accomplish specific thing> by <deadline>.”

“I will write a book by October 1st, 2021.”

“I will squat 315lbs by January 3rd, 2021.”

“I will gain 1,000 Twitter followers by Christmas.”

For someone in school, most of this is done for you: “I want to complete my anthropology essay by the due date on Friday.”

At work: “I want to finish the inventory report before the presentation on Wednesday.”

Okay, great, we’ve made the most generic “SMART” goals possible. Let’s keep it that simple and move on.

2.) Measurable Actions

If this were a generic blog post, you find when you Google “how to create a plan,” I would say something like “work backward to figure out what steps you need to take.”

But this is the wrong way to think about it, especially for us with ADHD. We already suck at time management, and we can’t make predictions like that.

Let’s continue keeping this simple. All you need to do is pick out some measurable amount of time you can reasonably spend on your goal, and try to do it with that schedule in mind. This is exactly what Avalon did. Here are a few examples:

“I will <do action> for <amount> <interval>”

“I will write for 2 hours every day.”

“I will go to the gym four times per week.”

“I will post on Twitter 5 times per day.”

“I will work on my essay for 30 minutes every morning.”

“I will work on the inventory report right before lunch for 30 minutes every Tuesday.”

If you’re anything like me, you might be feeling a sudden gut-wrenching terror at what I just wrote, or perhaps you’re just not longer paying attention anymore.

Setting measurable goals and actions sounds like advice your teacher might have given you in elementary school.

But are you feeling bad about this idea because it’s bad advice, or because you’re already anticipating your inevitable failure to stick with this type of plans?

Let me ask you this. What if you took that feeling of inevitable failure into account in your plan?

3.) A Failure Mechanism

If “measurable goals” made you upset, I understand. No, really, I do. But you’re not upset because this is bad advice. You’re upset because this advice historically hasn’t worked for you, and now I’m here spewing the same bullshit you’ve heard a million times before.

Perhaps you had some goal that you wanted to achieve just like this, and you “fell off the train.” You broke your streak. You missed a day. Or perhaps it did work! But only for a short time before you eventually forgot about it.

Maybe you had great enthusiasm for the first week of university. I know I did. You completed 100% of your assignments on time for that one glorious week. You did everything properly and just fucked it all up and got “lazy,” right? And now you’re always “behind” and full of anxiety. You fell off the train. You broke the streak. You ran out of steam.

So let me guess, you wanted to do “one hour per day” of studying, and you missed a day. So the next day, you said, “I’m going to do TWO hours today!” Did that work? You Forced Yourself, didn’t you? That second hour was no longer easy, and you just did it out of the technicality. You made zero progress, got deflated, and now your streak is over. Another plan bites the dust. Your reasonable plan turned into an extremely difficult plan because you stumbled just one time! It wasn’t an excellent plan in the first place, was it?

That’s because you never accounted for imperfection. Your plan didn’t account for failure. You followed the generic blog advice just like I did. Your “plan” was turned difficult because you assumed you would never make mistakes or have bad days.

There were two problems with your actions in the first place. First, you think that the “measurable” part of your actions are a debt you owe. “One hour per day” – that’s just a guideline. It’s not a gold star that the fairy godmother of productivity is going to give you each time you complete it. Humans screw up. ADHDers get distracted. Shit happens.

Your parents, professor, boss, teacher, coach, or Elon Musk isn’t watching over your shoulder, ready to scold you for messing up your magical plan. You’re not a robot. You’re a sack of meat trying your best with the only brain you have.

Another thing you never accounted for is what happens if you get hyperfocused. You probably patted yourself on the shoulder, didn’t you? “One hour” turned into three lovely productive hours, and you just felt so damn good. Did you use those three hours to pay down the silly “debt” you think you owe? Did you realize you actually failed your plan that day? You did maximum effort. That’s not good, remember?

When I started writing this book, I set a goal of writing 1,000 words every single day. My goal was to write for 30 straight days. I figured that 30,000 words was approximately the amount of writing I wanted to do. Easy math, simple plan. 1,000 words per day should be pretty easy, right?

By the second week, I had already “failed” my streak. I had spent a few days proofreading and re-writing and my magical word count debt was not met. The fairy godmother of productivity would not be happy with me about this one!

But everything was okay. I had planned for such transgressions. I had a failure mechanism in place.

When I had a day where I missed my goal of 1,000 words, I used my powers of mindfulness to understand what happened. A simple 10-second thought experiment at the end of a “failed” day was more than enough.

Moreover, there were many days where I “failed” because I was feeling tired and burnt-out for reasons external to writing a book. There were other days where I “failed” because I spent time interviewing, editing, proofreading, or revising. When I asked myself why my magical 1,000-word goal wasn’t reached, I came to a simple, empathetic, logical conclusion that my plan needed to be slightly adjusted. When I originally wrote my plan, I did not account for productivity that was not represented by the word count. Instead of getting upset, I continued forward. My consistency was still high, and my goal was still alive. I just had to slightly modify my daily requirements. Easy.

This is what I mean by failure mechanism. It’s not complicated, it’s just a question you ask yourself. “Why isn’t this working?” Be mindful and objective. If you genuinely want to accomplish a goal, then by definition, any failures along the way are not moral issues. You’re not a bad person or a failure. You just need to slightly adjust your plan.

It’s a simple feedback loop the lets you make changes to your plan to keep it healthy and sustainable.

“Why did I fail today?”

“What can I try differently?”

In my case, I answered my own questions with the following:

“I failed because the work I was doing in my book was not measurable in a simple word count. Instead of counting words every day, I’ll change my goal slightly and try to work on my book for 5 hours each day rather than worry about the word count.”

By the end of the month, I had actually reached 38,000 words instead of 30,000. It turns out that sustainability was more important than focusing on word-count itself.

No judgment was required. This is the metagame of being productive, and it’s the best part. You’re building a better process by simply asking why.

Imagine if I had asked myself “why” I was failing to progress with my squats all those years ago. It would have taken me about 30 seconds to conclude that my ego was in the way, and I should just follow the damn plan someone had so generously posted online for free.

You might be noticing that this requires you to be mindful and conscious in the moment. If you can’t do that quite yet, it just means you need practice. The only way to practice is to start. Start asking yourself “why” as compassionately as possible, as often as possible. The worst thing to do is judge yourself too harshly. Creating a good plan is a practical process and disconnected from any morality or “laziness.” You’re trying to build a good plan that keeps you consistent and productive. This is the opposite of laziness.

4.) Consistency

Author Steven Pressfield wrote in The War of Art that you should treat your creative process like a full-time job. If you show up in the correct environment every single day, regardless of what happens, you will eventually put pen to paper, and a book will emerge.

Jerry Seinfeld, stand-up comedian and creator of the hit TV sitcom Seinfeld, says something similar. When he was starting out as a comic, he challenged himself to write one joke every day. His plan was to put an “X” on his calendar every evening to keep his “joke streak” going. Even if he wrote an awful, unfunny joke, the technicality of his effort was enough to mark that day a success.

I don’t particularly love the “streak” mentality, but there is truth to what both Pressfield and Seinfeld have said. You don’t need to be excellent every single day, but you should be consistent. Quality emerges from sustained effort, not on-the-spot brilliance. Any plan that requires daily perfection is not a good plan. Good plans are sustainable and achievable as often as possible. You are the most essential part of any plan. If you aren’t able to complete the plan, it’s the plan that is wrong, not you.

What I like about Seinfeld’s plan is that he did a small amount of work every day, without caring about quality. Some days he probably wrote great jokes which he kept, but he claimed victory from consistency, not from excellence.

Furthermore, a plan should fit your life. If you only have a few free days per week, or a few hours in the evenings, you shouldn’t follow a workout plan meant for a professional millionaire athlete. A training regimen for an NBA player is not a good plan for someone who has a full-time job and three kids. You need something that caters to your life. The best plan is one that you follow consistently.

Why Failure is a Good Thing

Failures are only bad if you abandon your plan. Most of the time, failing is a great thing.

ADHDers seem to fail faster than most. I think our dopamine starved brains accelerate to try and reach milestones more swiftly, and we inevitably do this without sustainability.

For years you’ve likely been taught that failure is awful. It should be avoided at all costs! But failure is not the evil you think it is. Failure is not the opposite of progress. In fact, it’s the precursor to success.

Moreover, failure is the most critical part of any plan. It’s a signal that it’s time to improve or change something. When I wasn’t keeping up with my word count goals, it was a signal that my measuring stick was not appropriate for the work I was doing. In effect, my failure helped me understand my work better, and I didn’t let it get me down. I just happily adjusted my goal and carried on. I stuck to my new, slightly adjusted plan, and eventually accomplished my goal.

“But I can complete so much more with hyperfocus!”

Remember that 30-day sketching challenge? Let’s use that as an example. Your goal is to sketch for 1 hour every single day for one month. That’s an okay looking plan at first glance. The first three days are fine. On the fourth day, you get hyperfocused and start diving deep into a large, expansive sketch. Six hours later, you have created an impressive piece of art. Did you fail or succeed?

You didn’t sketch for one hour. You sketched for six hours. You did fail. Did you plan for what happens if you get hyperfocused? Do you go back to your regular one-hour sketches tomorrow? What if you feel tired? Do you “deserve a break” tomorrow?

If you want to become a better artist, then yes, you will have to work on more complicated pieces of work at some point. And we know that hyperfocus can be a powerful tool to help you create amazing work. But the original goal was to sketch every day for one hour. You literally didn’t do that. You got carried away and started sprinting at full speed because it’s fun.

The correct answer to the hyperfocus question really depends on what the purpose of your plan is. If you are working on something to cross some arbitrary finish line as fast as possible, then you might as well take advantage of hyperfocus and you think you can finish your task quickly. Just note that you should purposefully schedule yourself a period of time to recover if this is the case.

If the purpose of your plan is to build a routine where you are training a skill, then you should avoid hyperfocus at all costs. Training works best in long-term, sustainable, planned activities. If you want to become better at drawing, you should sketch often. Hyperfocus destabilizes sustainable plans. It is useful for short bursts/sprints of productivity, but it’s not good for training.

If you are following a plan closely, and do find yourself becoming hyperfocused, maybe give yourself some “bonus” time, but not much more than that. It’s not efficient to burn out.

Training should be easy and sustainable. Hyperfocus is taxing and burns you out. Combine them with extreme caution.

Practical Implementation

Whatever big project or work you are going to do, always make a plan. I suggest putting them outside of your brain somehow. Either write these down or say them out loud to a friend or your spouse. Just make sure your plan exists outside of your mind. Remember, plans are for you. I survive just fine with keeping my plans simple and saying them out loud a few times. That’s more than enough for me. Do whatever works best for you.

To make your own plan, answer the following questions:

What is your goal?

What is the deadline?

What action do you take?

What is the amount of action?

How often do you do this action?

Are you training a skill or trying to get work done?

What does failure look like?

How do you adjust your plan if you fail?

Is this plan sustainable?

Once you have these answers, try to simplify them as much as possible. If you found that you enjoy using a Spaced Repetition tool, add this new plan as a new flashcard. Study it so you can remember it. If you end up disliking your new plan, just build another one from scratch with everything you’ve learned.

The more adjustments you make to your plans, the better they will become over time.

Chapter 23 
Skill #3: Infrastructure

A Good Plan Needs Good Infrastructure

It’s possible to have only a good plan with some mindfulness and make adequate progress, but at some point, you’re going to need to take a look at your emotional and physical surroundings.

Infrastructure doesn’t actually “do” anything directly, but it’s a vital part of sustainable and long-term reoccurring productivity. It’s like the tires on a car. They won’t get you on the right highway, but it’s impossible to drive with a flat tire.

It’s also important to treat your Infrastructure like a checklist. No not that type of checklist. More like a list of things to check off and forget about. It’s a skill to get everything in working order, but at some point, your infrastructure just needs to be maintained. Put the right tools in place and get to work. Don’t dwell on over-optimizing.

All That Health Shit

Remember our section about diet, exercise, and sleep? The one that is infuriating because it’s the first piece of advice every single therapist and doctor gives you?

Try your best to do as much of the “health shit” as you can. Especially sleep. It’s not a magic solution, but it fits right in the middle of the hierarchy. If you don’t sleep enough, you’re going to suffer. But if you sleep perfectly, it’s also not a perfect cure for everything. Just make sure you’re not shooting yourself in the foot by ignoring your sleep, diet, and overall health. Remember, these are checklist items. Try your best, but don’t let one night of poor sleep cause you too much worry.

Environment

Are you somewhere that makes you feel comfortable? Is it a consistent place? Are you able to work at your full potential here?

Every task needs its environment. I don’t mean things like checking emails. I mean productive tasks.

Doing things requires a place to do them. A dentist cannot work in a mechanic’s garage. A student cannot write an exam in a swimming pool. A programmer cannot create an app without a computer and a chair to sit on. These are places optimized for the task at hand. You need one of those too.

If you want to write a screenplay, make sure you have a place you can sit and write for extended periods of time. The same goes for being a programmer or a carpenter. Designate a specific place to Do Your Work. This place is your professional environment. It’s where you practice your craft. If your desk is cluttered, clean it. You need to own this space.

When I was in university, I did the opposite. I often took my laptop on tours of the campus. “Aha! The library/chemistry building/sunny grass field is where I will study!” Every new location came with a new set of cognitive overhead. There were new sights, smells, sounds, and feelings with each unique environment. I had a quiet, cozy dorm room with a comfortable chair, yet I kept coming up with reasons why my environment was the issue. I became a campus nomad rather than a diligent student. I didn’t take my dorm room desk seriously. It was messy, and I didn’t like to be there. I had the wrong mindset. I should have improved my existing environment instead of testing dozens of new places.

Your environment is an important place, but it only needs to be adequate. Once you can confidently say your desk, garage, bedroom, dorm room, or office is sufficient for the task at hand, you can consciously check that box and move on. Don’t do what I did and start coming up with environmental reasons for being unproductive. My dorm was totally adequate, but I kept using it as a proxy for why I wasn’t able to focus.

Pick the environment where you can work the best, make necessary adjustments, and then consciously designate it as the location where work happens.

Tools

There are similar excuses I’ve told myself about the tools I’ve used. “My laptop is too slow.” “My keyboard sucks.” “I don’t have the right tools.”

There is a bare minimum of tools for any particular job. If you want to chop a tree down, you probably need an axe or a chainsaw. But you don’t need the newest, shiniest tool on the market.

Here’s another way of looking at tools. If you gave Roger Federer an old, used tennis racket, could he still beat you in tennis? What if you had the most advanced tennis racket in the world? Federer would still destroy you.

Tools are just tools. Obviously, you should have a set of tools that keep you efficient, but generally, you can accomplish a great deal of work with ordinary tools. Those with ADHD always want to find the latest and greatest shiny new tennis racket. You don’t need it. It’s very stimulating to buy new things, but constant over-optimization is a distraction in itself.

Just like the environment, make sure you have the right tools for the job. But once you have what you need, tick that checkbox, and move on.

Friction

How “hard” is it to get to work? Do you have a messy desk and a set of tools that are hidden away in a garage? This is the root of the subtle anxiety you get when trying to get started.

I spoke with Dani Donovan about her success in overcoming her own productivity friction. Her insights on the topic perfectly encapsulate a simple yet effective system to smoothing over those “extra steps” that bog us down.

“When I started creating comics, there was always a lot of effort to get started. Sometimes I would have a good idea, but the friction of having to go upstairs and find my notebook was the extra step that was preventing me from writing it down. Instead of trying to have a perfect cute notebook where all my work was centralized, I bought a bunch of crappy notebooks and put them in easily accessible spots all around my house.

Now, whenever I have an idea or inspiration, there’s always a notebook physically close to me, and I don’t have that friction anymore.”

— Dani Donovan, founder of Adhddd.com

Dani also hints at the folly of perfectionism. For one reason or another, ADHDers have a strong perfectionist attitude. We tinker and prod at our work and are rarely satisfied. I suspect this is a reason so many of us are graphic designers, artists, and programmers. Instant feedback is highly stimulating. Both code and art provide the delicious stimulation we are looking for. Unfortunately, we continue to tinker and wish for perfection, never quite reaching it.

But like Dani said, having one perfect notebook to draw perfect notes in was not working. Her bundle of “crappy” decentralized notebooks was far more productive. Dani made the conscious, mindful decision to overcome her perfectionist desires and eliminate the friction standing in the way of her creativity. Now she has far more productivity despite straying further away from “perfection” than ever before!

Excuses

You have your environment and tools. You have also followed Dani’s advice and reduced friction. You also have a list of excuses — or perhaps you call them “reasons” — for why you can’t get to work.

I’m not here to be a Tough Guy™ and tell you that your excuses are invalid or that you’re a “pussy”. That’s just a toxic attitude. However, self-compassion is not a solution to your problems. It’s just an attitude to help you reduce negativity, but it’s not a solution.

In Part 1, I told a story of me being unable to sit down and start studying for an exam despite having all my tools and environment ready. Eventually, I came to the immature conclusion that I was “lazy” or had “something wrong with me.” Was I wrong? Should I have been more self-compassionate? Less?

My conclusion was incorrect, but I was on the right track. I was not lazy, but there was something wrong with me! I had undiagnosed ADHD and a lifetime of negative language associated with a lack of productivity.

Rather than giving up, I put in all my mental energy to sit there and try to keep working, yet I was not successful. By the end of it, the excuse I told myself was that I hated the subject I was trying to study. The reason I found it boring was the fault of the subject itself, rather than something in my own life. In a way, I was being compassionate to myself. “It’s not my fault, accounting is just boring.”

I think this a negative trap. You fall into the idea that your problems are external. These transform into excuses that you keep telling yourself. These excuses eventually become dogma. They become reasons.

I could have saved myself a lot of trouble had I been more analytical and less compassionate in this case. I had such a shallow understanding of my own life, and I was not able to be analytical because I was not mindful. I was not mindful because I was busy coming with excuses -- and thus reasons -- why I was not able to study or write essays or work on the projects that I was interested in. I should have been more objective and examined why I was feeling so much friction. If I was more honest and less compassionate, I would have realized my brain wasn’t working the way I wanted it to, potentially leading me to getting diagnosed with ADHD earlier.

I think everyone has good excuses from time to time. Your car broke down, you’re late. Shit does happen. But a lot of the time, excuses act just like failures in your Plan. If you find excuses, they’re actually signals to work on aspects of your own brain. If I had been more mindful and neutral about my situation, I could have come to the relatively obvious conclusion that I should speak to a counselor or therapist about my focus problems. Had I done even the smallest amount of self-reflection, I would have turned my excuses into more knowledge of my mind works.

In summary, don’t avoid self-compassion, but try to be objective about it. Is this a “shit happens” moment? Or is this excuse an opportunity to learn and grow?

Accountability & Deadlines

We talked about deadlines and failures in the Planning chapter. Deadlines are useful time markers, but they should also represent a negative consequence if they are not met with completed work.

Deadlines and accountability are the mechanics in your life that help you complete projects. Unfortunately, there’s no way to be productive in a sustainable, successful way without having the negative consequences of a missed deadline.

A deadline is a promise to someone. If you break this promise, it’s not the end of the world, but something bad should probably happen. Otherwise, a deadline is worthless.

Accountability done correctly is highly motivating and can help you finish projects. Accountability done poorly is unhelpful and causes stress. If you give yourself unrealistic expectations, your mortal self will inevitably break the impossible promise you made. If you give yourself zero deadlines, you’ll be less compelled to finish things.

Accountability is often towards someone else. Perhaps you have an essay due at midnight. Your accountability is towards your professor, which is reflected in your final grade. Or maybe it’s towards your boss who has assigned you some tasks. If you break enough promises to your boss, unfortunately, you will not have a job anymore. That negative consequence runs the global economy. It does work.

In some form or another, accountability is just negative stimulation. It’s an underlying mental process running in the background that generates exponentially increasing anxiety as the deadline approaches. You need some of this negativity to keep you going.

It’s entirely possible to be productive without a deadline or any accountability. You might just love what you do. But pure passion is not an ally of finishing projects.

Leonardo da Vinci, who likely had an extreme case of ADHD, worked his entire life without any accountability. The nobles desperately tried to convince him to finish his commissions, but to no avail. They withheld payments, threatened him, or convinced other artists to complete his half-finished masterpieces.

Da Vinci was well known to never finish anything. He started new projects with excitement but burned out quickly. His genius carried him a long way, but he inevitably let everyone down by running away from so many of his projects. By all accounts, he felt awful about not finishing his work, but feeling guilty was not enough to get him to complete his projects. He lacked accountability because everyone eventually gave him a pass. Leonardo was given far too many chances and faced no consequences. He ignored deadlines, broke promises, and moved on to new projects on a whim.

Here is one instance of Da Vinci’s accountability problems. Remember how Da Vinci had all those precise anatomical drawings and was way ahead of his time? Did you know that none of that work was ever discovered until much later? In the early 1500s, Leonardo da Vinci was collaborating with a doctor named Marcantonio della Torre. Da Vinci drew hundreds of precise anatomical sketches, diagrams, and analysis that would have revolutionized the understanding of the human body. Regrettably, della Torre died from The Plague. Da Vinci’s accountability vanished overnight. None of this work was ever published before he died, and was only discovered in the 1960s.

As much as I admire da Vinci’s genius and art, he was given far too much leeway. Despite his historical reputation, he truly thought he was a failure up until the end of his life. I promised you that you could be productive and happy at the same time, and most of the time, this is true. But sometimes long-term happiness requires short term stress. Da Vinci would have avoided so much of his suffering and guilt had he figured out a way to hold himself more accountable. If you build yourself a solid plan and work consistently, you can avoid most of the negativity associated with deadlines. But this isn’t always the case. Many of us with ADHD need the negative stimulation of impending doom to motivate us.

I think Da Vinci could have completed and published much more in his life had he recognized his own flaws and built a strategy to avoid giving up on projects. He could have devised a way to hold himself accountable, but instead, he moved on to other projects while feeling immense guilt and shame.

Adding accountability to your life is essential. Sometimes it’s already built-in, such as grades or the threat of losing your job. Most of the time, these help us complete projects. It’s not a great feeling to be up against a stressful deadline, but there’s no denying how motivating that can become. You should try to avoid it as much as possible by doing good work consistently, but sometimes you do need that negative stimulation to get you over the finish line. Don’t be afraid of giving yourself a deadline, even better if you can externalize it.

Supporters

Your friends and family can be helpful supporters to have in your infrastructure, but don’t use them as a crutch. Everyone, even your closest friends or partner, has a limit to how much they can assist in your strategy.

Supporters should be used to aid you in other factors, rather than to provide explicit support. A great example is in accountability. You can pick a supporter to be accountable to for a given project. This doesn’t mean you rely on them to motivate you, but you introduce the consequence of disappointing your friend or partner if you don’t complete some work. This phenomenon is usually built-in to a job, as a manager usually provides you with a source of accountability.

Another great example is for deconstructing excuses. When you feel like quitting a project or a habit, ask someone you trust to be a neutral arbiter to bounce thoughts off of. Is your reason for quitting a logical one? Or is it a painful obstacle that you can actually work around? It’s helpful to get feedback from others, especially if you’re prone to fixating on the tempting stimulation of quitting something and starting “fresh” on a new project. A good supporter could help you recognize this and assist you in understanding legitimate obstacles.

Practical Implementation

Health — Healthy habits are an ideal candidate to add to your spaced repetition (if you like using that tool.) They’re also hard to stick with for non-memory reasons, so your results may vary. Ultimately you know what’s most effective for your own body, so I can’t provide much detail here. Just make sure you’re trying your best to do all the healthy things you know you should do.

Environment — If your environment is “good enough,” then move on. If not, figure out what you can fix immediately and do it.

Tools — If you’re able to do the first 10% of some project with the tools you have, you’re likely able to finish the entire thing with the same tools. If this isn’t the case, don’t start buying new shit until you actually need it. It’s not practical to have unused equipment.

Friction — Do what Dani did. Reduce any possible friction as soon as possible. Any delay in getting started with your work is friction, be it mental or physical. Figure out what it is and fix it.

Excuses — Think of excuses as a good thing. All of your excuses are new information you can use to improve. Be objective about them. Just like failures in the planning stage, excuses are a golden opportunity to look into what’s causing you to stumble.

Accountability & Deadlines — A missed deadline is more useful than no deadline. The point isn’t to stress you out. The point is to guide you to a destination with a subtle threat of consequences. Create deadlines and use them to generate accountability, not as punishment.

Supporters — To start, pick one trusted person to be your leading supporter. Don’t overwhelm them, but ask them to be a source of objective feedback from time to time. Tell them your goals and plan, but then don’t bother them until your deadline has passed. Once the deadline arrives, tell them one way or another if you’ve succeeded.

Chapter 24 
Skill #4: Motivation

The Negative Externalities of “Finding Your Passion”

I spent a lot of time attending conferences and listening to panels where well-polished, successful professionals in uncomfortable suits would brag about their “story” and describe how they overcame their great struggles. As a young person who could never stick to one project or hobby, I listened intently as they described their glorious life-changing career moves with wonderfully descriptive language. They were so lost! They hit rock bottom! Nobody believed in them! That is, of course, until they finally found their Passion™ or ran 100 marathons or traveled the world for a vacation to find themselves.

All of these talks left me with some degree of residual inspiration. I would go home and devour books and articles on what other successful people did. Each story had the same conclusion: you must find your passion! I felt insecure. I had no idea what my passion was! Was I doing something wrong? Did I miss a memo? I kept searching for ways to find my passion. Nothing I found satisfied the requirements set out by the Successful Speakers.

I was convinced that the reason I was never able to finish any project was because I lacked this magical passion. I was hoping that I would stumble upon some new hobby, goal, activity, job, or anything that would come and rescue me from my inability to complete projects or stay focused. I put all my faith in the fantasy that I was just one discovery away from achieving all of my goals and overcoming these perceived failures. I just needed passion!

Even worse, I would have my occasional bursts of hyperfocus. I came to the conclusion that the obsessive motivation I felt during moments of hyperfocus was the passion I was looking for!

Unfortunately, my bursts of obsessive motivation would fizzle out after a few days at most. I concluded that these moments of hyperfocus moments were what passion should feel like, but that I just had to keep searching for some more valid passion that would not fizzle out like all the others did. My search was never successful.

I think “finding your passion” is misunderstood. The squeaky-clean Successful Speakers were just formatting their messy human lives into a digestible narrative. Each act of randomness throughout their careers was neatly packed into a story that came out looking like they followed their destiny. They then use common literary themes like fate or the hero’s journey or passion to make sense of their otherwise chaotic and random lives. This is the narrative narrative.

The Narrative Narrative — the idea that everyone’s life is a distinct story and can be explained using literary themes.

When looking back on anyone’s life, it’s easy to start piecing together different events that fit nicely into one compact story. After all, storytelling is a useful compression algorithm humans use to educate and entertain. With any compression algorithm, however, you end up losing some data.

I’m also not trying to disparage the Successful Speakers. They’re just humans who were asked to come speak at a conference and they tried their best to do what was asked of them. They had a time limit, and they did their best to tell their story. So, of course, they create a narrative, it’s more entertaining that way.

Negative Externality — an unintended negative side effect to a third party

Each tale of passion adds a negative externality to the listeners. We create this fantasy of what it would be like to finally find this magical passion. If only I found my passion by now. We build up this hope that we will be rescued from all of our problems with the discovery of some new, big idea that we immediately become passionate about.

The folly of finding your passion is exaggerated for ADHDers. We go through our bursts of hyperfocus, where we become convinced that we’ve discovered it. But we haven’t. We found a temporary, unhealthy, rapidly depleting obsession that somewhat aligns with the fantasy we’ve been imagining in our heads.

Just like productivity, you start comparing everything you do to this magical time where your motivation turned into an obsession. There was nothing that could stop you. All obstacles were invisible or easy to overcome, and you felt superhuman. Is this a healthy, sustainable amount of motivation to have for a long-term project? We already know that hyperfocus won’t let you finish a project in a weekend. We know that hyperfocus burns you out. So what makes you think that the accompanying obsessive motivation is any different?

Passion vs. Hunger

Passion does exist. You’ve likely felt it. It’s even possible that you have routinely become hyperfocused on something that you are passionate about, but that’s probably a coincidence more than a sign of destiny. Passion is not obsession. Passion is far less intense than the hyperfocused obsession you know so well.

Passion — when you enjoy something so much that you’ll go through some amount of suffering just to do it.

Even this definition makes it seem like there is some divine property of humans that drives towards some action or goal.

A friend of mine once said that quitting smoking and the subsequent nicotine withdrawals were similar to “feeling kind of hungry.” This isn’t to belittle the efforts of those who quit smoking, but it’s a useful parallel for our examination of passion. Does passion feel the same way? This certainly fits our definition. If you are “kind of hungry” in the literal sense, you’ll likely “suffer” through the process of cooking or ordering food just to satisfy your cravings. If you are “kind of hungry” but have no available food to eat, you are likely to start feeling irritable, just like someone who is in the process of quitting smoking.

Regardless of how accurate my friend’s description of quitting smoking is, I found the idea much more useful to think about in the context of passion. For so long, I had assumed that passion was just a permanent version of hyperfocused obsession, but it’s actually just something that makes you feel “kind of hungry.”

Do you have something in your life that you want to do every day? Perhaps it’s something you crave often, but only a little bit. Maybe it’s just enough to put a smile on your face, but not enough to rescue you from all distractions.

Passion is a subtle motivation. It gives you a slight craving. A minor level of hunger that brings you some level of joy. It’s not magic.

When I started to examine my life with this definition of passion, I was able to pick out many potential candidates. I think they existed within myself for a long time, but I was so caught up in the passion narrative that I never paid attention to them. I had assumed that passion was this unlimited obsessive hunger that would unlock a permanent hyperfocus. I was enamored with the idea that I would evolve into some superhuman capable of working 100 hours every week if only I found this perfect passion. I also assumed that this passion would rescue me from burn-out and distractions. I thought that if I found something I was so fiercely obsessed with, I would simply not get distracted ever! But that’s just wrong. ADHD is a neurodevelopmental disorder, not a passion deficiency.

This is why building a strategy around your ADHD is so important. It lets you work on your passions and interests with sustainable, consistent effort and allows you to avoid burning out.

There is no magical passion coming to rescue you, but you can start recognizing what you are already passionate about. There is no superhuman state you’re going to reach “one day.” The only way you will be able to complete your projects, avoid distractions, and get focused is to actively practice those skills.

Begin practicing the ability to identify what you are already passionate about. What are you “kind of hungry” about? There must be something, even if it’s subtle. This is a skill just like anything else. If you can’t identify anything, then this might be the perfect opportunity for a new Plan. Create a new Plan around discovering new projects and ideas. Once you find it, start building around it.

Practical Implementation

Think about your passions. How does it feel to desire this thing? Does it feel like you’re “kind of hungry”? Or is it more than that?

If it’s more than just “kind of hungry,” how long have you wanted to do this particular thing? If it’s a long period of time, maybe your passion just burns brighter than most. If you’ve only known about this new “passion” for a few days or a week, you’re likely obsessed.

Figure out the difference. Do work that you’ve been subtly craving for long periods of time, and don’t necessarily jump into new obsessions headfirst.

Chapter 25 
Skill #5: Distractions

Why We Get Distracted So Much

Think about a time you were playing a video game or your favorite sport. A time when you were “in the zone.” Some call this “flow state.” Were you fighting distractions in those moments?

Now let’s imagine you’re playing soccer. You find yourself right in front of the net with the ball. You have a perfect shot to score an easy goal. How difficult is it for you to keep focused on the soccer game? Did you have to delete your apps to remember to kick the ball into the net?

“Eliminating distractions” is a final optimization in a good strategy. If you do all the proper steps with mindfulness, planning, infrastructure, and motivation, you’ll be less likely to be distracted by all the common enemies of focus that you’re so used to fighting.

First, let’s talk about why we get distracted. Your brain is not stimulated enough by your current task, so it looks elsewhere for stimulation. People with ADHD have executive dysfunction and thus have a harder time avoiding alternative stimuli. This is the phenomenon that creates the stereotype of the hyperactive ADHD boy who is distracting other students in class. Despite the social pressure of his parents, teachers, and peers, this kid just can’t sit still. The assignments and lectures are not stimulating enough. His brain starts to wander, and he starts fidgeting or just stands up. He then becomes a distraction everyone around him, and the stereotype persists.

This stereotype also contributes to much of the confusion about what ADHD actually is. The inability to sit still in the second grade is just one manifestation of ADHD. I was undoubtedly distracted as a child, but I found the most stimulation in my own brain and imagination. I would “zone out” in class regularly, despite appearing like I was paying attention. When the teacher called my name, I might have seemed “stupid” because I snapped back to reality and had no idea what the lecture or assignment was about. Since I was not “hyperactive,” I did not fit the stereotype for ADHD. Fortunately, I was clever enough to hide my inability to pay attention, but it’s clear to see how ADHD symptoms can make someone look “stupid” or “slow.”

Internal Struggle

Regardless of how distractions manifest in your life, whether you were a hyper kid or someone who zoned out into your own imagination, it’s vital to understand that the external stimulations are not at fault. If you are not stimulated or motivated to do some work, the alternative stimulations your mind seeks out are just symptoms. The root cause is likely the work itself. That’s why people who try their best to block out all distractions usually fail in the long run because all they did was lock themselves into a room with something they don’t want to do in the first place.

Three Types of Distractions

1.) Alternatives to your boring work

If you’re not stimulated by your work, your brain will try its best to make itself stimulated. This is why I mention motivation before I talk about distractions. If you’re sufficiently motivated by something, you’ll do it. If you’re “kind of hungry” and you have a delicious meal in front of you, you’ll just eat. If you’re not really hungry at all, it’s challenging to eat, and you’ll want to do something else. No matter how many distractions you remove, you’ll only be able to eat if you Force Yourself. Clearly, you shouldn’t be eating this meal in the first place. The distractions aren’t at fault.

2.) Bad Habits

It’s not rocket science to say that humans form habits. If you’ve ever looked into how to build better habits, you will have stumbled across the idea of the “cue → routine → reward” loop. All this means is that your brain acts upon specific cues, does some routine, and expects to find a reward.

The reward can be anything from satisfying hunger to the clean feeling of having freshly brushed teeth. The cue might be “my teeth feel dirty” or “it’s time for bed,” the routine is “brush my teeth,” and the reward is “my teeth feel clean and minty.” There’s dopamine flowing around here on here, of course. The action you take to start brushing with your toothpaste releases some level of dopamine as the anticipation of the reward manifests in your mind.

Some of the distractions you have in your life are simple habit loops that you can identify and change. Personally, I have the bad habit of checking Twitter every single time I finish a small piece of what I’m working on. For example, if I finish coding some part of a website, I check Twitter. My cue, in this case, is that I’ve finished some small checklist item, my routine is to check Twitter, and my reward is the fresh hit of dopamine as I find new content on my timeline. Now that I know about this habit loop, I can be mindful of it and try my best to change it by creating a replacement routine. When I hit my cue of finishing some checklist item, I can make a conscious decision about what I would prefer to do instead.

You will notice that most of the habits you find distracting will sound something like “checked Twitter” or “checked Instagram.” There is no goal. The dopamine from checking your timeline or notifications is the invisible reward. This “checking” generally solves and accomplishes nothing.

It’s easy to see how if you had an activity that interrupts your work, it might be just a habit you’ve formed as opposed to some external force attacking your productivity. If you think that such a pattern is distracting from the work you actually want to do, the solution is simply to be more mindful of this habit, and try to change the routine and reward, NOT to try and totally block it. If you simply try to “stop” all of your “undesirable” habits at once, you’re going to be expending most of your mental energy on ignoring habits rather than spending that energy doing the work you wanted to do in the first place. In essence, you’ve created another distraction by accident.

3.) Dopamine Faucets

There are distractions that you should eliminate from your life, but only if they fit specific criteria. These I call Dopamine Faucets.

Dopamine Faucets are activities that overpower your agency by overloading your brain with a constant stream of delicious dopamine. These are not addictions, but they might feel pretty similar. They’re things that are so appealing to your mind that they dwarf your motivation to do the work you want to do. Dopamine Faucets are a constant stream of desire to do something else. No matter how much you want to do your job, these activities will always have a superior appeal, and you will spend a considerable amount of mental effort just trying to ignore them.

Some common Dopamine Faucets are video games, binge-watching TV shows, YouTube, and many mobile apps such as Instagram or Twitter. Most are digital and designed explicitly for something called “engagement.” I’ll spare you the edgy new-age minimalist TED Talk, but basically, teams of smart engineers spend years optimizing these creations to output as much dopamine as possible.

Dopamine Faucets affect ADHDers in similar ways that hyperfocus does. We get totally immersed and forget about the rest of the world. Some of us can successfully avoid this in the moment, but sometimes it’s better to remove them from our lives in the first place.

When to eliminate distractions

Eliminate distractions if you have done everything else first. Are you doing all you can to become more mindful? Do you have a plan that you’re following? Have you ensured that your infrastructure is in place? Are you motivated to do the activity that you’re getting distracted from in the first place?

If you’ve done all of that and are still having trouble staying focused, then you should start paying attention to what’s distracting you. You’re likely already aware of what your distractions are. After all, you wouldn’t be aware of “getting distracted” unless you caught yourself in the act.

So what is distracting you? Is it a video game you’re compelled to play? Is it social pressure to hop online and spend 8 hours playing? Social pressure is a distraction in itself, and it’s a very tempting one. This is where the “eliminating” rhetoric starts to break down. You’re obviously not going to abandon your social circles, but maybe you start making yourself unavailable in a polite way. Not permanently, but just enough that you can do what you need to do. This is a rare time to expend as much mental effort as you can. Once you’ve said “no,” the pressure is usually off.

If your distractions come from somewhere else, try your best to delete or remove them. At the very least, removing a potential distraction will let you know if the availability of the accused distraction is actually as distracting as you think it is. Often times merely living without the offending distraction for a day or two is enough to understand its previous effect on your work.

Practical Implementation

Eliminating distractions is mentally challenging. They are dopamine sources that our mind will miss dearly. Please use your mental effort wisely. Do not try to become a robot overnight. Try to just pick one activity to change at a time, and see how that works.

This is how I would go about eliminating distractions:

To start, find a notebook, a piece of paper, or open a note-taking app on your phone. Nothing fancy, just somewhere to write notes that you can take with you.

At the start of your day, write down every single lapse of focus you have. Anything biological should be omitted (i.e., bathroom breaks or food).

Your list might look like this at the end of the day:

Checked Twitter

Checked Instagram

Checked Reddit

Played video games for 2 hours

Checked Twitter

Watched Netflix for 1 hour

Checked Instagram

Whenever I do this, I cringe at the vast amount of “checking” I do. Noticing the volume of time wasted on actions I don’t even remember doing is enough to prompt me to stop doing them. You don’t need to do this as a long-term note taking exercise, just do it once. It will make you aware of these actions and give you the control you need to decide whether or not you want to keep doing them.

If you decide you don’t want to visit a particular website anymore, use whatever means necessary on your phone or web browser to block it. If the video game you’re spent 2 hours on is not something you want to play anymore, delete it.

That’s pretty much it. There isn’t any magic to eliminating distractions. The magic happens before you even get distracted in the first place, by building a better overall strategy. Figuring out what makes you crave these actions is more efficient than hiding them. Besides, if you’ve done all of the other components of your strategy, you’ll be less prone to distractions in the first place.

You might eventually fail at eliminating distractions. For any game you delete, you might reinstall it somewhere down the road. This same goes for apps and websites. The point isn’t to be perfect and become a robot. The point is to build yourself up to a point where you are living a life that is stimulating enough to not need these distractions in the first place. This takes practice, patience, and persistence. If you try your best as often as possible, you will reduce the number of unwanted distractions in your life.

Chapter 26 
Putting It All Together

Now that we’ve identified the five skills you should work on, let’s see how to put them together in a specific context. I mentioned before that I worked on a video game for quite some time as a side project before I wrote this book. I’ll use that as an example.

Making A Video Game

When I first started making this video game, I coincidentally started to meditate. I took my friend’s advice and downloaded a free app that had a “30-day course for beginners”. This was the first Plan I created. It looked something like this:

I will use the meditation app every morning at 9am for 30 days.

You might notice that I lack a failure mechanism here. My plan was incomplete. After the third day, I had to get to work early, so I missed my meditation. That was enough for me to forget about my new Plan. When the weekend arrived, I realized my mistake and adjusted my Plan.

I will use the meditation app every morning at 9am for 30 days. If I miss one day, I will just continue on from wherever I left off.

This slight change helped, and I continued my streak for 4 more days. As you can imagine, I forgot once again after something else came up. This time, I added my Plan to my Spaced Repetition app. Remember, we gain tacit knowledge about how to use our strategy the more we practice.

I did forget to meditate one more time, but I became much more consistent as I began to study the Plan into my memory. I only missed a few days in the following weeks.

Along the way, I also started to listen to an ADHD podcast. I chose to listen during my existing gym routine. This allowed me to gain more knowledge of my brain, and about how others were dealing with their ADHD, while doing another activity at the same time. A big realization occurred when the podcast mentioned limiting hyperfocus. I never realized I could do that before.

At some point, I realized I really wanted to make a video game. I downloaded a game development software called Unreal Engine and instead of mindlessly tinkering with the user interface, I created a new Plan. Here’s what that looked like:

Measurable Goal
I will purchase and follow the entire Unreal Engine Zombie Survival Game tutorial series.

Measurable Action
I will watch five of the instructional videos every week for two months.

Failure Mechanism
If five videos per week becomes too much, I will adjust my deadline and actions.

Consistency
If I find myself hyperfocusing, I will give myself an additional hour of work, but cut myself off after that so I can avoid burning out.

After my misstep with my meditation practice, I became more mindful about what I needed to do to ensure success with this new project. I knew immediately to add this Plan to my Spaced Repetition app. As I continued along with the video game tutorial, I also added any new programming knowledge as flashcards.

The weeks went by, and I realized I might have a problem with my Infrastructure. I noticed my computer wasn’t fast enough to run the example game at full graphics. That was disappointing, but I recognized my efforts were part of a learning process, so I turned all the graphics down as far as they would go. The game looked ugly, but the functionality I was learning was more important than creating a beautiful game. I knew that I could complete the entire tutorial series with my existing computer, so I decided to embrace the ugliness. My Tools were good enough to get me to where I wanted to go, so I decided not to change them.

Fortunately, the rest of my Environment was also good enough. I already had a clear desk with a comfortable chair. I also had an exercise routine and a relatively good diet, plus I already had a great sleeping habit, so I got all the Healthy Stuff out of the way. There was very little Friction for me to get started, as everything was available on my computer. The only thing missing was some level of Accountability. I already had a deadline in my Plan, but I decided to start posting screenshots of my progress to a group chat with my friends. They didn’t know about my deadline, but I found the consistent posting gave me a strong feeling of Accountability.

After ensuring the Mindfulness, Planning, and Infrastructure parts of my strategy were in place, all I had left to do was think about my Motivation and Distractions.

Because this was a fun hobby project, my desire to continue was built-in from the very start, so I just had to avoid burning out. I had already recognized my urge to make a video game from much earlier. I just never really knew how to get started until now. I thought deeply about why I wanted to do this project, and it was nothing more than a simple wish to create something entertaining for my friends and me to play. There was no obsessive urge, just a fun “kind of hungry” feeling. I decided that it was more than enough to continue going, and it worked for the time being.

I did encounter one Distraction that I successfully avoided. At the time, my friends started to play a new video game that had just been released. Rather than diving in, my meditation practice had given me the ability to catch myself just a few seconds before I made the decision to join them. It sounds like magic, but it’s true. I had my finger hovering over the “Purchase” button for this new game, but I decided not to. I knew this would be a powerful Dopamine Faucet, so I took my hand off the button. I was honest with both myself and my friends that I didn’t want to get sucked away from a project I was currently enjoying. It was the right decision, and they happily accepted that.

Before long, I found myself completing the 20th video of the tutorial. I only had 10 more to do! I never let myself burn out, and continued to learn more and more about Unreal Engine, despite never hyperfocusing. This was a brand-new feeling for me, as I generally never followed any Plan for this long.

Did I make it to video 30? No! After I completed the 25th video, I began to really dislike the tutorial. It started to veer off into a totally different direction than what I wanted to learn. Was this a failure? Not at all. This was a conscious decision. I was in control, and I have zero regrets. It was the perfect time for me to readjust my Plan. Remember, my underlying intention was to learn how to make a specific style of video game. The Plan I had created was just a mechanism that I thought would get me there. Once my Plan was no longer taking me in the direction, I happily updated it and continued on.

Here is the updated version:

Measurable Goal
Using the knowledge I gained from the previous tutorial I was following, I will create a small prototype video game with <list of features> in 30 days.

Measurable Action
I will work on my prototype for 5 hours every week.

Failure Mechanism
If I am unable to work on this prototype without the guidance of a tutorial, I will find a new course to help teach me the things I want to learn.

Consistency
If I find myself hyperfocusing, I will give myself an additional hour of work, but cut myself off immediately to avoid burning out.

The only thing I changed was this slight alteration to my Plan. Everything else remained the same, and I was able to continue being happily productive at a comfortable pace. Eventually, I completed my prototype within my deadline, and I continued posting screenshots to my friends. It was a fun journey. The end result wasn’t a very fun game, but I had achieved my original goal and learned how to make the specific video game I desired. Along the way, I realized how difficult it would be to actually create and release a full version of my game, and frankly, I never had any intention to do that in the first place.

I didn’t work on any video games after that, but the strategy I had come to know and love formed the basis of me writing this book, and it’s served me well for various other projects I have worked on since then, as well as helping me maintain productivity at work.

I used all of the components of my strategy to start a meditation practice and build a video game prototype while maintaining a full-time job and gym routine. It’s not magic, and it’s pretty simple once you write it all out. Not everyone will have the amount free time that I had, but that just means you should adjust your Plan’s calculations accordingly.

A strategy for ADHD is just a series of conscious decisions to build a healthy approach to productivity. Nothing I did was genius, but I just avoided stupidity as much as possible. I made many errors along the way, but I tried my best to learn from them. This is how I’ve started to gain the tacit knowledge required to employ this strategy for all new projects that I work on for the rest of my life. And I know you can do it too.

Chapter 27 
Getting Stuck

I Did Everything Right, But I’m Still Stuck

It’s 10am. You’ve done everything right. You took your medication, followed your routine, ate a healthy breakfast, had a good sleep, and followed your strategy perfectly. But there’s one problem. You just can’t get started.

In your plan, you should have a failure mechanism. The central tenant is to try and identify the things that make you fail. But today is different. There is no apparent reason why you’re unable to get started, and you don’t feel burnt out. It’s tempting to tell yourself the crude ADHD lie that you just need to “try a bit harder.” That generally won’t work. There’s some brain fog that has overcome you today.

The frustration is unreal. You want to get started on your work! Your heart is in the right place, as is your logic. Unfortunately, you have ADHD. Sometimes, despite doing the best you can, you get stuck.

Personally, I try to accept that this will be an unproductive day and move on. But if you really need to get to work, there are two viable ways I have been able to identify that can help you jolt into productivity. This is getting into Brain Hack territory and might not work for you, but they’re worth a try.

Do Something Scary

Sometimes, and I mean sometimes, you can snap out of brain fog by getting your adrenaline pumping. Do something scary. I don’t mean physically dangerous. I mean, push yourself to do something that makes you emotionally uncomfortable or is totally out of the norm for you.

Some examples I’ve heard from my interviewees:

Have a phone call that you’ve been anxiously avoiding

Talk to your boss for a raise or promotion

Phone your partner and tell them how much you appreciate them (if you already do this often, good for you)

Eat some food you usually detest

Have a cold shower (the point is discomfort, remember)

The emotional adrenaline seems to do the trick for me on rare occasions, but I generally avoid this approach altogether. Sometimes “scary” things are not so accessible. If you’re on top of everything, you might not have access to anything that’s causing you anxiety, nor do you have any apparent sources of adrenaline, but some of these examples are worth a try.

You might not be in the right mindset to go and jump into a cold shower. I really understand this part. So much about ADHD is related to your mindset that it might not be the best time to have a difficult phone call or conversation either, so I’ll leave this up to your discretion.

Do Something Else

If you’re stuck, and the work you’re trying to do is not due today, just do something different. There are very few times in life where there is nothing else productive you can do other than your main work. So try something different, if possible.

Remember when we talked about binary tasks versus non-binary tasks? Binary tasks are uncreative. Try to do those. You will still be productive, and you will also give your creative energy a break. Generally, when you spend a day doing mindless binary tasks, the next day always seems to be more productive on what you actually want to work on.

Bonus: Exercise

I’ll keep this short because it’s not something that I have had much success with.

A minority of people I spoke to claim that doing some form of exercise is an excellent way to snap out of brain fog. I suspect that the adrenaline pump or dopamine rush has some play here. Regardless, this little bonus tip is to try and do some exercise if you’re feeling stuck. If you absolutely can’t get to work, do as many push-ups (or some variant) as you can. The physical effort may be just enough to get your brain working, but at the very least, you get to do some minor exercise. It’s worth a try.

Conclusion

Chapter 28 
ADHD Is Hard

Living with ADHD is exhausting. We spend so much time trying to shepherd ourselves into focus or attention. The people around us don’t understand the internal struggles we go through. Those that are ignorant think we’re “lazy” or “don’t want it enough.” This isn’t true. Often all we want to do is to be able to sit down and get to work! But those words don’t disappear. We internalize them and gaze upon ourselves with negativity.

We play the what if game. What if we could pay attention? What if we could stay focused? What if we weren’t so distracted all the time? How far along would we be?

The what if game makes us cling to hyperfocus. Our random bursts of superhuman productivity feel so good after struggling for so long! But we burn out and suffer even further. We taunt ourselves with the “potential” we have. What if I could just be productive last like weekend? I know I have it in me!

So we go and seek help from therapists, teachers, friends, family, professors, colleagues, and managers. Some of their advice is good, some of it is bad. Unfortunately, all of it is focused around alleviating anxiety or lowering our goals and expectations. Despite the flood of well-intentioned advice, none of it talks about mindset or strategy.

I refused to accept that I can’t achieve my goals. I refused to accept that I can’t be productive and happy at the same time. I refused to lower my expectations, and I chose to reevaluate my mindset and build a strategy around that. It really does work.

Chapter 29 
A New Strategy

There are so many silly things that we do because of ADHD. We get anxious from calendars. We are late to meetings because we got zoned out while standing outside the conference room. We go down rabbit holes on the internet instead of doing our homework. We forget names and birthdays but remember obscure facts from our favorite hobby. We can’t fix our dopamine system, but we can change the strategy that guides us.

Every person I spoke with had to forge a new strategy to become the successful person they are today. It’s a collection of traits that they have all practiced over time. This strategy isn’t a series of instructions. It’s a group of ideas that you must try for yourself. Overcoming your ADHD symptoms is not a few brain hacks. It’s a tacit knowledge you must acquire. The only way to obtain this ability is to try, fail, and try some more.

Mindfulness allows you to understand how your brain works. Not just from an overall academic standpoint, but in a present in-the-moment awareness as well. Practicing mindfulness, especially with meditation, allows us to laugh off our automatic responses and change course in the moment.

Planning gives us the ability to create and maintain actions that lead us to our chosen goals. It also gives us the most important feature, which is our ability to use failure as a positive, corrective force. When combining consistency and mindfulness, we can rapidly correct our course as soon as we being to fail our given plan.

Infrastructure is the way we shape our environment to help us overcome the ADHD symptoms we know will occur. Infrastructure allows us to execute our planning in a comfortable, healthy, and sustainable way. This is a purpose-built environment that reduces friction as much as possible and keeps us happy and productive at the same time.

Motivation is about finding out what really drives you, so you can take consistent steps towards your goals rather than continually trying to sprint as fast as you can. Healthy, sustainable motivation is a subtle desire rather than blinding obsession, and it allows us to use our productive infrastructure to its full capacity.

Distractions are the common evil in the ADHD universe, but they’re less important than you think. Understanding what is really distracting in your life is more than just deleting a few apps from your phone. True distractions are unwanted, but often we blame distractions instead of looking back at why we’re not motivated in the first place. Distractions are the last thing you should think about, even though they are the first visible symptom of ADHD.

Chapter 30 
Sometimes You Fail

Even the most diligent ADHDer will fail and fail often. But failing is not something to be ashamed of, despite what you may have internalized.

Failure means you tried. Trying means you’re putting in effort. Putting effort in to understand and overcome your personal hurdles is the most honorable thing a human can do.

If you get stuck, don’t feel ashamed. We all get stuck. We all get brain fog. We all have trouble focusing, no matter the amount of coffee you drink or the dosage of your medication. What matters is trying to figure out, with an objective and judgment-free mindset, how you can improve for next time.

Chapter 31 
Reasons For Hope

If you are reading this book, it means you are trying to improve yourself. Simply putting effort in and showing up means you are doing laps around those who have not. This brings me hope for the future.

I am hopeful not just for those of us with ADHD who are trying to improve ourselves, but also for the next generation. Our children will grow up in an environment where people are receptive and understanding to how their brains work.

I am hopeful that with each discussion, book, article, blog post, Twitter thread, TikTok meme, and YouTube video, we increase the global understanding of neurodiversity. With this understanding comes compassion, empathy, and better systemic support for those who don’t fit the “normal” mold.

We will be the generation that understands and empathizes with our children. We will be the generation that helps and supports each other, no matter how we’re built. This all happens if we are open and honest with one another. I’ve been open and honest with you, and I know you would do the same.

Chapter 32 
Go Work On Your Strategy

You have the building blocks you need! You don’t have to run off and start building a complicated spreadsheet or bullet journal just to get started. In fact, you’ve already started just by reading this book.

So go start. Build your strategy. Gain tacit knowledge. It’s your brain, start to understand it and use it properly. Start building your strategy. Figure out what you don’t have a good grasp on, and start. You will suck at first, but so does everyone. Being a novice in understanding your brain is good. It means you’ve started.

Go.

Table of Contents

Preface

Introduction

Part 1

Chapter 1 What Is ADHD?

Chapter 2 My ADHD

Chapter 3 Getting Diagnosed

Chapter 4 Going to Therapy

Chapter 5 Bad Advice

Chapter 6 Time & Energy

Chapter 7 Finding Our Own Tools

Part 2

Chapter 8 The Harsh Truths about ADHD

Chapter 9 Hyperfocus

Chapter 10 Letting People Down

Chapter 11 Letting Yourself Down

Chapter 12 Take Responsibility

Chapter 13 Calendar Anxiety

Chapter 14 Stuff I Tried

Part 3

Chapter 15 Getting Better

Chapter 16 Mindset

Chapter 17 The Long Game

Chapter 18 Mental Effort

Chapter 19 Healthy Stuff

Chapter 20 Tacit Knowledge

Part 4

Chapter 21 Components of a Strategy

Chapter 22 Skill #1: Mindfulness

Chapter 23 Skill #2: Planning

Chapter 24 Skill #3: Infrastructure

Chapter 25 Skill #4: Motivation

Chapter 26 Skill #5: Distractions

Chapter 27 Putting It All Together

Chapter 28 Getting Stuck

Conclusion

Chapter 29 ADHD Is Hard

Chapter 30 A New Strategy

Chapter 31 Sometimes You Fail

Chapter 32 Reasons For Hope

Chapter 33 Go Work On Your Strategy